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BP:  124/ 79   

OK, so I’m going to go home on Thursday or Friday( April 4^th or 5^th) and at first I was a bit on the skeptic side, but now I’m pretty OK with it. I mean, so I’ll take the bus with crutches. It could be worse. I could be on a wheel chair permanently or worse. My time here has been an experience, and I think I will be a lot more cautious crossing the streets nowadays. It’s just too much for me to handle, you know. All because some sick fuck decided to not pay attention to the pedestrian. Pedestrians have the right-of way so they should’ve. Not for nothing, but this experience will probably affect the way I view drivers now. I just hope I don’t get hit again though. Now I have to wonder who the fuck hit me, because now there’s someone out there who’s driving around knowing that they hit a person and they are not being caught. I wonder if it was a cop who hit me at times. Why doesn’t that fucking cop call me though. See, this is why I hate cops, they are just as lazy as the next person who has that type of job. Fucking pigs I swear. I don’t care for cops and I never will. They are too fucking dumb to understand me and shit so I don’t care for them.

Just saw the ad that has Niecy Cerise in it again. LMAO, you really can’t see the bitch’s face. Hell you can’t see shit but her fucking flat feet. I don’t know about women with flat feet. Flat feet are just plain ugly and unappealing. It must be why she’s not getting that much work.

            On another note, I might get me the ab rocket because I would like to work out(buyabtwister.com) sometime this spring so I can look good for the summer. I’m not trying to impress anybody. I just want to look great for my doctors and my girl. She likes me regardless and so I don’t have to worry about that(or do I?)

I think I will be OK if I don’t get to date Moreen. I think it’s because she’s been such a good friend that I really don't want to lose that, and I tend to lose that when I date and break up with women. I almost lost a good friend in Natasha. Now, mind you, she’s not the most ideal girl for me(too much of a weed smoker for my taste) but she’s a good person and I love her because of that. as for Moreen, she’s a good person too. I think she keeps me grounded, which is more than enough. And I like that she has a sense of humor, which is always a good thing. I get to play with her and not be so serious. I think I’m only saying this because I really like her, but I don’t want to lose her friendship and if I get too attached, I will get pissed off at her for not wanting more than a friendship from me, and I shouldn’t let my emotions ruin our friendship.

            Wow, I just heard that the teacher who was struck by a car two weeks ago passed away. It happened in Rham, CT. and the driver was a fucking mom, who, for all one knows, was in a hurry to get to work herself. I can’t believe people are acting as though they might lose their jobs if they come in late, lol

4:06

BP: 124/72                                                                                                                              HR – 89

OK, so I’m waiting for this chick to bring my friggin’ keys to me so I can be ready for my return home, and she hasn’t even showed up. I mean, what the hell, man. Seriously, I am not feeling this shit at all. She just seems like someone who’s all out for herself, and I don’t want someone like that. I should’ve known that I don’t want a girl with kids anyways.

I don’t know if I want kids due to our family’s record of having children with problems. I mean, maybe I am lucky to not have the genes that Veronica or Luis do, but they have kids with issues. One of them passed away, while my niece has mental issues. Not that I don’t love her, but  if that’s our offspring’s history, then I don’t want that.

Recovery hqs been getting better than I thought, and I’m practically walking and my foot doesn’t me as much anymore. I just wonder if I should take the crutches or a cane. I would prefer the cane, but I’ll take the crutches as well. I just hope I can afford to live off of work for another three weeks after next week because, though I do have the money to stay afloat, I do hope I can fully walk without the use of anything by the time I’m off from leave.

You know, I think I can take a cane to work if anything, my leg seems to be healing rather quickly and my nightmare seems to be more than just over. I’m pretty much able to walk. I’m giving it at least two weeks for it to heal completely, or sooner. I’m already set to take a cane instead of crutches. I know I can use a cane instead because my leg seems to be fine. Sure it’s a bit stiff, but it will heal pretty fast if I’m diligent with my own therapy on my own. I think that I’ll be fine. Finally I’ll be able to walk. Well, I can deal with the walker, but I would like a cane. This damn blister needs to heal the fuck up already. Damnit I fucking hate Prednisone.  

            j.Lo has a new single out. “I love you Papi” and it sounds OK, can’t say much  about it, but I’m glad that she’s still doing music. A true leo that has many talents. I can’t say that she can’t sing, I mean she’s doing a friggin’ album. Obviously she’s selling them, otherwise she wouldn’t be making more music. I just love how relentless she is.