03-31-14                                                                                                                                                               3:11a.m.

 

                I am watching this movie called “Wolf” starring Jack Nicholson. I didn’t even realize that it was over 20 years old(1994)  when I’d first seen it, I didn’t think much of it, but I was probably bouncing from one apartment to another back then because of moving around with roommates and shit. Anyways. This movie is so old, I hadn’t realized how old it was until now. The first thing that got my curiosity was the computer monitors. It was a monochrome monitor where the colors consisted of just blue and grey on and nothing else. Only two whole colors for an editing program. I DO remember using programs in the 80s and 90s and even using the computers when they were harder to work with since it was more of a “RUN” type of deal where you couldn’t turn it on without sticking a floppy disk into the disk drive and then letting it run through the program on the disk. I doubt it had any RAM back then because it would have run without it. It did not have a hard drive and if it did it, it was the biggest bulkiest hard drive ever seen in my eyes, and let’s not get into the memory capacity in it, lol. This brings me back to when I started going to school over at Manchester community TECHNICAL college. This was when the schools in CT, the local state schools were all TECHNICAL. They were changed to just plain community after 2008 or something. I remember the transition and how I had attained my associates by the time I’d gotten out of there in 2008, took me about 10 years to get out, but I did. I remember I was dating Nakia Rivera at the time, and boy was it something to be around her. She was such a bitch to be around. I’m surprised I even graduated because she was such a pain in the ass as a girlfriend.

                It’s crazy, but that guy from the show “Friends” Ross, was in the movie, as a security guard for a zoo, lol….what a trip this is. This movie was very underrated. I mean Nicholson was a great looking wolf. He already had those ice col Lycan-like eyes. There’s even the guy from the 80s movie “Pretty In Pink” and even Michelle Phieffer. Talk about a great cast of actors. I think this movie was pretty cool. I thought it was cool 20 yrs ago, and I think it’s cool today. Beats that movie, “Skin Walkers” which looked like bullshit with their funny looking werewolves. “Underworld” was cool, but it focused more on Vampires than the Lycans,two of the myths that Love reading about the most. When it came to myths and stuff of the mystical kind, I was always reading about them.

 I will bet you that I have a record for reading so many books. I would take out a book almost daily from my local library. Every single day I would go to the library because I didn’t have friends that lived nearby to me. One writer who stuck out to me was Edgar Allen Poe. He sure was strange. I read a lot of his books and even a book on him. It got into his life and his addiction to opium or something to that effect. He was a weird guy. 

A lot of people don’t realize how much I read, but I’ve always been an avid reader.i know about a lot of things because I practically grew up in the library and have never really left it. Some people like to call me “book-smart” because they don’t read and find that my reading books is somewhat awkward, when the real deal is that they are the dumbasses who decided to not follow shit in school nor read a book long enough for them to talk about it. I hate people who don’t read books because it means they little to nothing to talk about. It usually shows when you talk to them. Eventually I do ask them if they ever picked up a book.  Some will lie and say that they do, but they aren’t convincing me because they have jack shit to talk about. I don’t really care for fiction readers because they read about fantasies and shit. Nothing ever comes out of reading fiction. I’d rather know someone who reads books on non-fiction subjects because you learn a lot more by doing so. It’s the best way to get information on your own. If you were to take everything that someone takes you for their worth, you might end up being misled by someone’s misguided (and more than likely biased) opinion/s on whatever. You might end up brain-washed because you decided to take their word for it. I’m not that type of person. I question everything everybody tells me, even when they are being genuine. Most times people aren’t genuine so that makes me the more paranoid around them. I can’t trust most people for the most part. They always find a way to snake their way into your life and try to bleed you dry. Especially your own people, by this I mean my own fellow Puerto Ricans. These assholes try to f**k me over just because I’m the same radce as them. those tend to be your worst enemies. They take advantage just because they think we have some solidarity from being PRs, I don’t fall for that shit no matter how friendly these niggas are. That’s usually the catch among most of these idiots. They come around when they need you, take what they want, then leave you alone and don’t bother you until they can get some money out of you again. This shit even happened in my own family. That’s the reason I don’t talk to most of them or I just forgot about them and I don’t ever talk to them because I always hear the same shit and their money problems. Somehow someway, they always find a way to segue their conversations into some money woes, and it’s just not me anymore. They used to love coming to me for money. Perfect examples are my two younger brothers, Armando and Luis, both of these low lives would come to me all of the time asking me for money. Mando was especially bold in asking me for money so that he could go out to a club. The nerve of this idiot. Luis would travel all the way from another state to ask me for money, and BOTH would give me some guilt trip if I gave resistance to their request.  Why don’t you just grow up and realize I’m not going to be there all of the time when you need money. Luis was great with his excuses and his stupid little sob stories. He’s in a wheel chair now, so he’s where he deserves. I could care less about him. As for Mando, lmao, he’s a Parking Lot manager, lol…what that means is that he plays musical chairs with cars, lol…but he tries to make it look like it’s a career. He’s the most creative of all when it comes to lies. This motherf**ker’s always been an underachiever, yet believes he does everything better than anybody else. He’s always been my shadow, but he’s afraid to admit it. A nurse called me into her office one time when we were in High school telling me that he’d been distraught of my ignoring him. Mind you this nurse was white, and white people love being sympathetic towards minorities. They also love being nosey to the point of annoying me. I told her he didn’t tell me anything nor showed any signs when I was around him at home and I was at work most of the time anyways.  Man, Mando(or should I call him Man2) has been a bitch ever since that shit yet acts like he’s family to me. I don’t really care for him, nor his whereabouts, nor what he does in life, so he can just piss off. His friends are a bunch of crackheads the he doesn’t know how to let go of, and his love life, well, I doubt he has one, because he’s always had problems with women. He already looks older than me even though he’s two years younger than me. I guess that’s what alcohol does to you if you don’t control your intake. Alcohol makes you age fast, and it shows in my brother, everybody from my ex-girlfriends to my own friends think that my brother’s older than me, lol. I am glad that I’m not a lush like my brother because he sure is looking old. He’s even balding and has gained so much weight. Being 5’11” and weighing 211 lbs isn’t a good look. Keep being a gluttonous f**k, Mando. When you develop Diabetes(it’s just bound to happen) then you might calm your ass down, but I highly doubt it.  Everytime I told to do something just because it was for your own good, you would go the other way because you wanted to be your own man who could make his own decisions. Little do you know that you can’t make a conscious decision to save your own life, moron.

It was really funny when I noticed you being an online rapper, Mando. And your claim that you got your talent from your dad was hilarious. Nigga you got that shit from me. If you’re so talented, why did it take you forever to come out with your hidden talent for music. Why did it take you 30 yrs to come out, bitch? huh? Because you never had talent. Not an inch of talent in you and you never will have it. You are just trained.  You’ve always tried to be Maci, because Maci knew how to speak his mind and think on his own. You tried drawing because I did it, you went looking for a job when I did it. You even got the nerve to TRY and rap. You became a rapper at the age of 30, claiming you got that shit form your dad. Nigga you can’t rap, lol. I remember that hilarious video of yours that you took all over your apartment. It looked like you never left the house, lmao. But you’re a rapper. You never even produced your own original tape/record. You just posted it up online or burned it on a regular CD-R, nothing special about that because you didn’t spend any money on your own project. Oh, But you’re also a man of GOD now. That’s the most laughable because when in doubt, put all of your hopes and dreams in the care of “GOD”. Great, but God isn’t going to help you with your health moron. And you’re, it’s no wonder your girl dropped your ass and took on another low-life nigga to be her man. You couldn’t amount to shit around her. And she seemed like a good person, even if she was just as much a low-life as you (yet another medical field worker who is NOT a doctor.) She did manage to find another guy though, even if the guy looks borderline gay, lol. But those are the choices you make in women, lol. And I will bet you that you have never dated a teacher or a law school student, where as I have. My choice in women is that of a mature man who knows what he wants out of a woman, and a ghetto chick is not for me. After my few scuffles with them ghetto hoes, I got tired of them hoes. They’re too much of a headache.  The pussy is so easy to get that you could run the risk of catching an STD.  What was it that your social media page said about you and your girl, “love isn’t hard, you just have to WORK AT IT” was that correct? Lol…I guess you got lazy and started slacking in that department. Lol…you’re just a funny story to tell people.

You can be friends with my best friend if you’d like. I’m sure you wanted to make him your friend forever since you’ve been trying to be friends with my boys. You must’ve thought it was going to piss me off, but I’ll give it this much mention, lol.  Little do you know I’ve moved on from those types of people. I really don’t need his friendship. He hasn’t progressed much further than living vicariously through his four children. It’s all he’s accomplished in life. He knows I don’t approve of him living the way he does, and that’s the reason why I leave him alone andrarely contact him or his family. I used to be alone when it came to hanging out with him and he was too busy hanging out with losers who  he thought were his friends. Now he finds himself yearning to hang out with me, much like you used to do as a child, lol. You two should just grow up. It is sad that you both thinking like adolescents. I don’t need either of you in my life and I’m pretty much happy being by myself if some people can’t stand my personality. I don’t like pretending and I never have pretended to be any other person but myself.  Your poor excuse is that you’re a Gemini, but you’re only following what you read in the horoscope, because it gives you guidance in life since you don’t have anything to guide you. The funny part is that you consider yourself my brother, lol  I relieve your of your duties as my brother until you pay back the debt that you owe me. I don’t need people of your ilk because you’re a parasite. You are much like my boy who tried to get money from me so he could buy himself drugs and start selling again only to lose the money and never pay me back. My, how shady some people get when it comes to money. Good thing he didn’t keep pushing for it because that would’ve ended our friendship. My friendship to him is much like most friendships on social media: yeah, we get along, we just don’t hang out like that anymore. I can’t say I’m surprised about your weight gain. You never amounted to shit and you probably never will. I wouldn’t expose my kids to you if I had them. I know you don’t have children because I don’t. You’re just a follower.  You’re killing me with your emulation of me. Don’t you have better things to do like park cars or something? Your life isn’t much so you have to act like Maci in order to make yourself relevant to people who, otherwise, would never deal with you.

03-31-14

BP: 138/85                                                                                                                                                                    HRate – 85

TEMP 97.9

8:03 am

OMFG, it is snowing, are you kidding me? And it is snowing hard too? DAMN, it better look good when I get back home because that shit looks ridiculous. I looked outside and it was pouring out white like no tomorrow. I can’t believe it. Oh, my God.  I thought they were playing an April Fool’s joke on me or something. What is up with this weather.  I swear I need to get out of here so I can just walk or whatever. I just want to walk home. I am feeling like I can use a cane nowadays and I would like to order one if possible. If not I will buy one at the Arrow pharmacy near my place. No biggie. I am all set for coming back to work and equipped with some of the finest equipment too.

                OK, I took a nap and now it’s one in the afternoon. Hopefully the rest of the day is cool and I don’t have to deal with nonsenseJ

                What it with people, well radio personalities, asking celebrities when they started doing it?  I wouldn’t say anything about that. Why even go there? What does it matter to you. So Nick Cannon “smashed” Mariah Carey. I wouldn’t touch Mariah’s ass with a ten foot pole, as much dick as that bitch’s had

                I love how this fat resident, Luz, who happens to be taking state healthcare assistance, is acting like she’s still feeling like she’s not recuperated.  She knows damn well that she’s fine, but she’s got to game the system. These are the parasites that I rave about almost on a daily basis. I can’t stand people like her, because they know they will get that FREE assistance, and this will only leave people who REALLY need the facility’s help on hold due to this fat, ugly, ghetto bitch.  these types of people exhaust the state funded resources while those who really need help will be set to the side.  I don’t blame the facility workers, because they can’t tell exactly if someone’s in pain or not, but this projuect bunny wants to be treated like a queen. She needs to wake up because she’s not going to last long as fat as she is. The facility workers have to use an engine hoist to lift her fat ass and place on an electric wheel chair. I’m here using a regular wheelchair because I really want to walk again, but this waste of human flesh doesn’t even bother exercising so she could walk by herself.  I hate bitches like her and when I meet them, I don’t want to get to know nor do I try to get to know them. They’re annoying with their simple minds and their stupid conversations. They just don’t know how to relate to someone like me. I’ve been around these dumbasses and they can never come up with an intelligent conversation. Their conversations teeter on stupid.  It’s like they are trying hard to impress me, but fail at every turn. It’s just that they are too dumb to hold a conversation with me. I’m beyond them, and they know it. Some try to put me down or downplay my intelligence by making stupid comments about me, but that shows how insecure they are.  I don’t react to their stupid shit because they’re not worth any sort of reaction to begin with. Now, between “Luz” and the other fat bitch residing in this health care center, they are both neck and neck with how ghetto they are. They make all of these stupid demands as if people are supposed to succumb to their whims.  No one cares about your needs. And they’re so nosey. They butt into everybody’s business when they should sit down somewhere and shut the f**k up. I’m not trying to pay them any mind since I am here until Thursday, then I’m out of here. As for the rest of the residents here, I can only get along with so many Latin folks in here. The black residents are also a pain in the neck . This one character, Howard Dotts, hogs the TV in the public viewing area when he’s got a TV in his room to watch the Final Four basketball games. He even took control of the TV while people were watching it themselves. I wanted to slap his one-foot-having ass for pulling such a stupid stunt. He acts all entitled and shit. I’m sorry but there’s something about some people that prevents them from doing beyond the bare minimum. I’ve worked with plenty of them to know that I’d rather not work with them until they prove they do the job correctly and proficiently. White people may be scared of black folks pulling the race card and citing discrimination or whatever, but I don’t care. I complain about all types of incompetent workers, even my own Ricans. You can’t rely on anybody these days.  These Ricans around me think I’m going to hook them up when it comes to them finding jobs, but they are sadly mistaken. I am not here to hook anybody up. You better prove your worth to my supervisor/s or my organization. I remember when my former co-workers mentioned applying for a position in my department. I was discouraging them from doing so, but they were adamant about getting a job there. I don’t want to work with former co-workers from my former library job because a lot of them are plain lazy. They don’t understand that I’ve moved on, but they were going to find out how much of an asshole I would become towards them.  I’m sorry, but once I move on to another job, I don’t like communicating with them, I don’t add them to a list of references because I really don’t need them. I tend to use former supervisors as references instead because they were aware of what I did. I never did a bad job around them either. Sometimes I do think some folks I used to work with would f**k around with reference talks because they would hate to see me make some progress. These are the lazy motherf**kers who will never leave the job that I left. They will never leave that job because it’s the only good job they have, they aren’t fit for anything else beyond what they already have. And if they try to get a job elsewhere they won’t get it regardless. It’s sad to say, but a lot of Puerto Ricans rely on this type of behavior from their own people just because we’re all in the same race.  I’m sorry, but I won’t allow myself to go through that bullshit.

                Finally, this bullshit show “How I met the Whore of your mother” is off the air, GOD, I hate that show so much. I don’t care for NPH’s gay ass being on the show either. The show made no sense what-so-ever. I don’t care for the stupid show at all. It’s just a filler to kill time on that channel. I know that most comedies end up with stupid endings, but damn if this one made not points at all. I think this one just showed everybody was f**king one another, how many times did one or the other guy f**k one of the girls?. Seriously, this was just a stupid show. I’m glad it’s gone and I can’t wait to NOT see it next week J…too many shows arer just like this. They have no direction and have that dry stupid humor we all know and love. Most of the time they were all doing the same shit: f**king each other, and switching up who they were f**king. All the while being friends. Is that what all sitcoms are about these days: Sex?  How these shows pass on to become best comedies is beyond me. I don’t really like this stupid show, much like I don’t like Friends, Sienfield, two and a half dicks, etc. they’re just stupid shows. There’s a new stupid show called “Friends with Better Lives” I mean what the hell. It’s no wonder I don’t watch that much TV. It’s all a bunch of filler that you really don’t need to fill your life with. Most of the shit you see does nothing to benefit your life. They just drain you and waste your time. It’s all a waste of time, seriously. I guess I really am not into TV that much, it’s too repetitive and boring. Most of the shows I’ve either seen before and don’t care to repeat seeing or are not interesting enough to grab my attention. I’m being weird, I know, but I would rather read a book or listen to rain fall(as I am now before I go to sleep)instead. I guess I do get bored easily and as I get older I find TV to be the most boring shit in the world. Sure I’ll watch some porn or whatever, or maybe even a movie, but I don’t care for a sitcom or a detective show. First of all, there are too many detective shows, and how much more paranormal shit do I have to see come out on Television these days. TV shows seem to be heading in a dark direction and it’s very depressing. There’s a show named “Believe” that’s pretty laughable because I don’t care for paranormal shit anymore. Oh, then there’s Crisis, which seems to teeter on “Saw”-esque shit where of graphic violence is the  norm. Oh, there’s “The Following”, which looks weird, “intelligence”, which borders on RoboCop, lol…too many of the shows make you reminisce of prior shows that were way better.  I’m just waiting on them to come up with a new “Max Headroom” on TV. That’s all we need, some more regurgitated shows from the past redone to reflect contemporary issues.

                Maybe I’m exaggerating but I know that most of the new shows have very bad actors and actresses. I just don’t think any shows are worth my time and spending time watching TV while in this facility proves how boring TV can really be. How people get stuck on things on TV is beyond me. I just don’t watch TV like that. I’m not saying I’m too important to watch TV but these shows were just not appealing to me.

03-30-14 3     3:50 am

Countdown to the Thursday (hopefully Thursday) and I’m anticipating getting back to normal really fast. I am already feeling like I can put weight on my right foot, and I don’t care about what the doctor’s going to say because I think I can walk with weight on my foot anyways. I haven’t had any pain and my foot doesn’t feel any soreness from yesterday’s walking (of which I did a lot.  I think I might be able to walk with a cane after all. It’s just that now I have this one dude at the rehab center who might just say “flat foot” while I am in the therapy dept. I can’t do it until Marc says I can, but he’s waiting on the doctor’s response, from which I think it’s an overdue response. Anyways, I don’t think I need to go through all of the shit that I was asked to do. I will go back to work after the three weeks, and I will bet you that I will be able to walk like a normal person. I can feel it. Yeah, my foot is still a bit stiff, but I think it’s because of having not moved for so long. I mean, it had to get a chance to heal, and I’ve given it about three or four weeks so it should be fine by now. And besides I didn’t BREAK my hip, I merely fractured it. As well as my ribs, but they are also on the mend and doing nicely. I am in the hopes that this is the same results I get from the x-rays. I am no longer feeling the soreness I did feel on my ribs that I had felt about a week ago. I think one would get that when they’re limbs or bones are repairing themselves. Thank god I don’t do hardcore drugs and just drink. Although I do drink(and I won’t do it a lot anymore) I don’t do the hard liquor like most people do and I’ll be damned if I have to deal with any type of drugs. I have never been one to get addicted to anything. Even when my friends try to push me to use their drugs, I don’t do it, because I’m sure they just want me to join their stupid little group of druggies, and I’m not a drug-taking person. I’ve never fallen under the influence of anybody trying to sell it to me. I can recall this stupid bitch, Amber, who I thought was a friend of mines, was giving me a drug in order to make me a customer. I take not at first, but then I noticed that she was making it a bit more inaccessible. It was as though the bitch thought I would get so hooked that I would be willing to pay for it, but my mind is stronger than that. You see, people who take drugs love to leave reality a lot, and I’m not one of them people. If I want to leave reality for a couple hours, I spend my time in a book or something productive, not drugs or alcohol. Those two seem deleterious to the body and I’m not one to indulge too much on them (especially drugs). I do drink alcohol, but even then it’s just beer. I don’t even drink high ABV beers, which says a lot about me, yet people have this misperception of me that I’m some lush. They are so quick to place judgment on me that they fail to realize that I do watch what I drink, and when I do get a hangover it’s not as common as most Alcoholics. I hate when alcoholics try and put me in their group, because I’m not an alcoholic. They try to make me feel guilty for it because they were made to feel guilty about it. Even that Stupid group Alcoholics Anonymous sucks ass because they want you to feel guilty about drinking. Not that type of function never worked on me because I’m not a gullible person who can easily be manipulated so. And I have gone to an AA meeting, so I know what the fuck I’m talking about. People in AA are people who are week in their will to give up shit, and so they guilted into believing that they are alcoholics, instead of letting them explain why they drink and trying to see how they can curb that behavior, they’d rather make you feel like you’re doing something harmful to society because Alcohol has a history of being viewed in a negative light since prohibition, and some people still think that it’s dangerous. The thing is that everything you over indulge in can be dangerous for you. You could drink too much water and die because of “liquid intoxication” or something to that effect, in which your blood gets so watered down that it literally drains of you sustainable enzymes or something. Whatever it is you lose, you end up dying because of the deficit you develop due to drinking too much water. There was an incident that was on the news in which a girl had drunk a lot of water in order to win herself a Nintendo Wii. She had drunk a lot of water to see how much she could drink without going to the bathroom to urinate. Well, she won the gaming console, but she also lost her life because she had intoxicated her blood. All I know is some people can be very stupid in doing shit, and this is an example of the stupid shit people will do to get something that will mean nothing to them in a few years.

            This place was monitoring my blood levels since I was found intoxicated that night when I was struck by car.  They assumed that I was an alcoholic. Throughout my initial encounters medical professionals, I was being asked questions that related to alcoholism withdrawal symptoms without any mention to it. I was wondering when the fuck they were going to mention that they thought I had a problem with alcohol, but none of that came out. There were questions pertaining to the symptoms that would show the presence of Alcoholic Neuropathy.  Questions about tingling or numbness in my feet or hands or my extremities were prevalent throughout the initials assessment questions. I remember thinking”what’s with all of the Alcoholism-related questions?” they all asked me questions pertaining to alcohol. It was getting annoying, but I answered their questions. Yeah as soon as you say that you drink throughout the week, it doesn’t matter what ABV levels you tell them that you’re drinking, they all think you’re an alcoholic no matter how low the alcohol is. It’s funny how people just lump you in with a group of people without getting into detail. They just assume I’m drinking the same shit everybody else is drinking, but they’re wrong. And I will start drinking less ABV alcohol from now on because I don’t’ like the “drunk” feeling anymore. I don’t have to give up drinking, and drinking has never been a problem, though it’s the main reason I run into some problem where I might have died. I almost died because of being drunk and crossing the street alone. That doesn’t make me a fucking alcoholic though. It made me a person who had too much to drink that night. I don’t do that every weekend or every day. I am no longer going to bars alone nor going to any public space alone. I think that’s been done and over with. I can’t. of course it sounds like I’m an alcoholic who is lying to himself, but I have survived this shit  I can understand someone who’s been drinking for quite some time and never took care of himself but I do take care of myself every single day.

Oh, yeah, I can’t forget to go to Nonopro.com to get that hair removal kit for my face.

6:13 am

            LMAO, there’s a movie on channel 20-2(THIS channel) and it’s so corny. It’s called “Mutant Hunt(1987)” and there’s a guy who was fighting two mutant dudes in his tighty whiteys, lmao, on top of that, he’d cuffed one of them to a radiator, and the mutant took a machete that was hanging from the wall, and cut off his hand to free himself. The funny part was that when you see him cutting his hand off, the blade was past the cuff and closer to his hand, like part of his hand was going to get cut off. THEN, after it was cut off, the hand AND part of the wrist was hanging, being latched to the handcuffs. So the director or whoever does the special FX didn’t catch that or they were running out of time, lmao!!! AND then, when he fights off another mutant near the same radiator (because the area where the machete was at was nearby) you see no more cuff and hand attached to the radiator. LMAO!!! I swear these B-Movies are seriously bizarre. And people in Hollywood pay for this shit, lmao!!! Whoever is playing in this movie, he’s got Latin Mullet, porn “stash” and a room that’s so empty I’d be freezing in it. It’s practically empty. It’s so minimal, you wonder if he’s paid or if he’s just broke as hell. YET he’s got all of these weapons, which must’ve cost a good amount of loot, but his fuckin bed is a joke. I wouldn’t fuck anybody in it, lol. This movie’s over 27 years old, and it’s so cheesy, lol…I’ve seen better movies that came way before this one, lol. I think “Night of the Comet” was better and it came out a year earlier if I’m not mistaken. Because damn, this movies is hilarious, lmao!!! This “THIS” channel is too corny. Probably the only thing this movie has going for it is the women in it, because I’d bang every single one of them. They look like vintage porn stars. I’d fuck them all, especially the red head, but then the brunette is also fine as hell. She reminds me of Beatrice Valle, a brunette porn star from back in the day.  It stars Rick Gianasi. I guess he never lasted because it’s been 27 years and he should be in his fifties by now. Yet he’s not around. I wonder why? LMAO!!!

Niecy’s dumbass would fit in nicely with this wack ass movie. Her acting is so funny, and they’re short parts too. Lmao!!! I swear she’s a trip. It’s no wonder she was all humble about it. Her part in RIPD must’ve been taken out because I didn’t see her in it nor did I see her being credited for it on IMDB. I’m sure she would’ve posted it on there so it’s funny how she hasn’t made it, lmao!!!!! She’s making LOCAL, and I mean LOCAL commercials, not international ones like ATT or Sprint or Progressive (like some actors are) but Local shit, like the local shoe store down the street from you. And even then, they don’t’ post her face up to the camera. Her face was practically absent, lmao!!! BUT she considers that a job accomplished. Well, whatever, she’s been at it for over 12 if I’m not mistaken, and she still hasn’t gotten anywhere, and she’s 32 yrs. old. How much longer will it be? Women that old don’t get parts, men do.

I have to buy me stud locator so I can attach the TV to the wall. I’m going to get rid of my gaming system, because I really don’t use it that much anymore. I already want to get rid of the Xbox 360 because I don’t use it at all, and I’m tired of playing video games.

Some of these residents are just straight up crazy. One lady in here cries like some dying cat that’s been beaten to death. Another person, this fat ugly chick, just keeps repeating someone’s name in the same tone about the same pace, making one think she’s a broken record. Then this chick starts to cry with this funny tone that it makes me laugh hard as hell.

OK, so Laura Pausisni is one girl look out for. She’s a pretty Latin singer. Love Latin music sometimes, but not always. I’m just naturally inclined to like it regardless of what it is. We don’t promote violence in most songs, though some people have done. In reggaetone, it was done initially and I’ll admit there are some who still do it, but the most they do now is usually our thing: emotions. I have had enough time on here to know that Latin channels are NEVER boring. I am comfortable with listening to Latin women talking in Spanish. There’s something riveting about the way they talk their native tongues, and I love it. I love being Latino, Spanish, Hispanic, and Latin, of Spanish descent. I can’t say just Puerto Rican because I love all my Latin people and how we get along once we get past our differences in culture.

“Cambio de Piel “by Marc Anthony. Not a bad song at all. I wouldn’t be surprised if women still swoon over this guy. I had a Jamaican girl who loved his music though she didn’t understand a lick of what he said, but it’s the Salsa that turns women on for the most part.

Awesome news, my blister is getting way better; it’s just that the healing process is getting to the point of annoying the hell out of me. Now it’s more of a nuisance than anything else. I want to just rip my foot off sometimes because the blister makes it hard to try and walk normally. It is on the side of my foot so it’s really a pain in the ass having it be there. I have been getting regular bandage changes, which is great. .

            All I know is that once I get out of here, I’m going to take life a bit more on the wild side and let shit go because I could have lost my life a month ago. Just imagine waking up to a bunch of strangers surrounding you trying to revive you and shit and you have a bunch of IV needles stuck to your arm and they’re all trying to ensure that you are OK. I appreciate them all for the wonderful job that they did for me as I am thankful to the people of Trinity Hill Health Care Center. They have been treating me with the upmost respect and care, and I am so impressed if not so thankful. Leaving here will be a good and a bad thing. I will be leaving a bunch of good people who took care of me for the better part of a month, and I am so indebted to them. I hope I get to keep in contact with some of them, but if not, I understand, because it’s all business and not personal. It’s just they made a difference in my life, so I’m very thankful to them as well my physical therapists: Marc, Joe, Marylyn, Debbie. Debbie’s enthusiasm as well Marc’s patience with me when I was being a bit stubborn was over the top. I love them for it and I thank them to the hilt. I can’t thank them enough. Marylyn I thank because she was a new girl and was also enthusiastic in helping me and others out. It was pretty cool. Jo was marginally there, but his words of encouragement and all of their memories were mind blowing. I know I know that I was showing progress; but that they noticed and celebrated it was pretty awesome. They made me feel invincible and in return, I did better than most people have before, which is more than awesome,J. All of the CANs were just as encouraging if not caring enough to talk to me and never give me a hard time. Only one person I can say was a pain in my ass and that was the homo who seems to have a chip on his shoulder. I would advise him to get out of the business of CAN because he’s not a fit for the industry. People in my situation need people who are caring and understanding of our situation, and he’s too “cafre” about the way he handles the job. You can get a job being a maintenance man if anything. Just collect garbage since your gay ass doesn’t know how to deal with people. You definitely are not a people person. If you claim that you are, I would literally beg to differ. A lot of the CNAs in here handled my roommates soiling his clothes with professionalism and I have yet to hear them rush him for his clean up. They have all looked out of him since he’s a very old man(must be in his 70s or 80s or something) and I respect them all for it with the exception of that homo who’s always rushing him to the point of annoying me. I believe that when you take on such a position, you should come with a heart full of passion and patience to deal with the likes of my roommate who can’t take care himself by himself. He’s very lucky to have these people take care of him, and I’m sure he appreciates it. He’s never been cranky as far as I’ve known him. He’s a pretty quiet person as well. He doesn’t bother anybody.  I think he’s a diabetic, so his check-ups are frequent and couple of days ago he was x-rayed because he’d fallen on the floor of the bathroom not too long ago. From the girl who works the third shift throughout the day, most of the nurses had genuine concerns over his overall health and it was cool to see that they cared.

            If I were to make any suggestions, I would suggest they invest in more board games, because that bingo shit gets boring and I don’t care for it. It’s so boring I can’t stand it anymore. I’d rather jump off the roof of a building.

            OK, so I haven’t heard from this chick and it’s because I haven’t called her, but I think I’m just going to let her go and let her be. It’s obvious she doesn’t want anything to do with me; otherwise she’d be trying to get in contact with me sometime. I guess she’s just not trying to do for me anymore and I’ve outlived my stay. It’s cool though. I don’t’ give a fuck though. Far as I’m concerned, she’s not trying to get with me so I will just move on. If she wants to get with me, she’ll have to make the moves, because I’m not feeling this shit and so I will move it along. It’s not like I don’t have my contacts and shit, so it’s cool to do so. I’m not going to call her and nor will I contact her during the week, but she better have my fucking keys by the time Thursday comes up because I’m going to need them to get back to my place and live my life alone. I’m not with childish games and it seems like she likes playing them. I know it’s because she was young at the time that she got married and she’s never been on a real date with someone’s who’s experience in dating, I’ll bet you she thinks that I am trying to make her my girlfriend, when I’m not. I do want to go on a date, but I’ve since changed my mind. I no longer think we are compatible. Friendship won’t be bad, but a relationship with her, Nah. I’m good. I can deal without her or her nonsense. Besides, if she ever needs something, she can always count on me, but I think her problems exceed my ability to fix them. I can’t help her out financially, something that she’s pointed out earlier this month, and I’ll be damned if I do help her in such a way. I’m not going to get involved with anybody who’s going to drain me financially. I can’t fuck with that and she knows it. She also knows that I don’t’ have much to offer, yet she’s still talking to me? Why? She could have easily left me alone a long time ago and I would’ve gone on my merry way, but she hasn’t so it’s got me puzzled by her behavior. I don’t like it and I don’t feel comfortable. I do think that she’s lost touch when it comes to dating and is just doing it all wrong nowadays. She doesn’t flirt with me, nor does she even pay me a compliment, so why bother. She doesn’t say that she misses my voice or anything. It’s as though I was just talking to a good friend. If that’s the case, then fine, but don’t’ think I’m going to hang around waiting for you to come around and date me. That’s no longer going to happen and I’m no longer going to pursue her. She’s a good person, but that’s it, I don’t feel anything sexual nor do I feel attracted to her in such a fashion. Yeah, I could fuck her, but what sense would that make if I’m not attracted to her mentally anymore. She’s pretty much pissed away any opportunity to get my attention and I’ve waited long enough. Her pushing me away was just that, her pushing me away. Natasha did the same shit, only she found a man much faster so I moved on. I’m no longer going after Moreen because I don’t feel anything except friendship with her. I mean, I’m not mad at her or anything. I definitely like that we became friends, but we can’t be anything but. She’s already known about me more than I wanted her to know. She’s been to my place already too, of which I never wanted her to see, but I had no choice since I needed some things from there. I figured she’s a friend anyways, so she shouldn’t be bothered by the shit she saw over at my place since she’s a friend and not my girlfriend. I have other girls I can always talk to anyways, and I don’t mind it.  She’s mentioned finding out about me “trading me up” and I got pissed because of that, so I just feel like she’s playing too many fucking games and I don’t want to participate in them anymore. It’s bad enough that she doesn’t flirt, but she’s acting like she needs some brushing up on her dating skills because I’m not familiar with that shit, so…..if she wants to talk to me, she can always contact me. She’s not stupid and she’s shown me that she’s not, so she better start using her brain to call me otherwise I won’t be contacting her until I have to tell her to get me my keys and mail back to me. That’s all I want from her. She already knows that I can’t call her on my own but she knows that I’ve I don’t mind her. She doesn’t know what the hell I’m talking about, then, Oh, well. I can’t say anything about that. As far as calling her later goes, I won’t to be honest. I already called her and she was busy. Why not stay busy for the rest of the fucking day. You know when I am going back home, and I hope you can remember to bring my shit back to me in time for me to be able to get into my place. Other than that I don’t care what happens to her. I do suspect that she was keeping herself from seeing me because she wants to lose weight, of which I don’t really care because I had done the same. I didn’t see her due to my concern over how I looked but hey. I couldn’t hide shit when I was hit by a car so there you go. Hopefully she doesn’t forget to get my shit to me before I return home. I am starting to hate how she’s been acting with me. It’s as if I don’t matter anymore, and I really don’t care for that shit, but it’s cool. I will just do me from now on. I don’t need her as much as she needs me so it’s not a big deal. It’s not like we were bound to be together anyways. She didn’t to see me when I was able to walk anyways. She always put it off because of some bullshit excuse like being elsewhere. After all of this shit I don’t know where else to go so I will no longer ask her out. I don’t need to anyways. And she can always drop off whatever at my neighbor Shirley’s place. I really don’t care what she does. I’m just tired of her playing her stupid games like I need to listen to her talk her shit while I’m recuperating. She’s going to miss out on a good guy is all I can say, but hey, that’s her problem. It’s not my problem at all. I will get myself up and I will throw myself back out there in the dating game. I don’t need to fuck around with someone who like pussy-footing around shit and she’s pretty much playing games with me. I’m not going to fuck with her like that so why’s she doing that to me? Anyways, I will just let her go and go about my own business. I am glad I got to know her, but she’s just a cool friend to me. When you do not flirt nor respond to my flirts without making me feel like I’m pressuring you to be my girl, what the hell do you expect to happen besides my getting turned off and going about my business. I just hope she doesn’t forget to get my shit back to me before I return home. She’s already skipped the whole fucking weekend and the bitch didn’t even go out, so what the fuck? You’re going to act all selfish and not bring me my shit? Really? OK, well, whatever. I will be expecting your ass to bring my shit by Wednesday night!!!  You don’t have to talk to me after that, and I’m sure that you won’t try to anyways so it’s whatever to me. And please don’t wonder why the fuck I haven’t bothered to call because it’s just the feeling that we are not going anywhere and I don’t feel like spending the time, nor wasting yours, of which you spend doing whatever the fuck it is you do with it. And I don’t know, but I also don’t give a shit. So just give me a call before you come to drop off my shit and call me later if you’d like, you have my number off of Pinger.com so use it. Otherwise I’m not going to contact you.

03 – 29 - 14

BP:  124/ 79   

OK, so I’m going to go home on Thursday or Friday( April 4^th or 5^th) and at first I was a bit on the skeptic side, but now I’m pretty OK with it. I mean, so I’ll take the bus with crutches. It could be worse. I could be on a wheel chair permanently or worse. My time here has been an experience, and I think I will be a lot more cautious crossing the streets nowadays. It’s just too much for me to handle, you know. All because some sick fuck decided to not pay attention to the pedestrian. Pedestrians have the right-of way so they should’ve. Not for nothing, but this experience will probably affect the way I view drivers now. I just hope I don’t get hit again though. Now I have to wonder who the fuck hit me, because now there’s someone out there who’s driving around knowing that they hit a person and they are not being caught. I wonder if it was a cop who hit me at times. Why doesn’t that fucking cop call me though. See, this is why I hate cops, they are just as lazy as the next person who has that type of job. Fucking pigs I swear. I don’t care for cops and I never will. They are too fucking dumb to understand me and shit so I don’t care for them.

Just saw the ad that has Niecy Cerise in it again. LMAO, you really can’t see the bitch’s face. Hell you can’t see shit but her fucking flat feet. I don’t know about women with flat feet. Flat feet are just plain ugly and unappealing. It must be why she’s not getting that much work.

            On another note, I might get me the ab rocket because I would like to work out(buyabtwister.com) sometime this spring so I can look good for the summer. I’m not trying to impress anybody. I just want to look great for my doctors and my girl. She likes me regardless and so I don’t have to worry about that(or do I?)

I think I will be OK if I don’t get to date Moreen. I think it’s because she’s been such a good friend that I really don't want to lose that, and I tend to lose that when I date and break up with women. I almost lost a good friend in Natasha. Now, mind you, she’s not the most ideal girl for me(too much of a weed smoker for my taste) but she’s a good person and I love her because of that. as for Moreen, she’s a good person too. I think she keeps me grounded, which is more than enough. And I like that she has a sense of humor, which is always a good thing. I get to play with her and not be so serious. I think I’m only saying this because I really like her, but I don’t want to lose her friendship and if I get too attached, I will get pissed off at her for not wanting more than a friendship from me, and I shouldn’t let my emotions ruin our friendship.

            Wow, I just heard that the teacher who was struck by a car two weeks ago passed away. It happened in Rham, CT. and the driver was a fucking mom, who, for all one knows, was in a hurry to get to work herself. I can’t believe people are acting as though they might lose their jobs if they come in late, lol

4:06

BP: 124/72                                                                                                                              HR – 89

OK, so I’m waiting for this chick to bring my friggin’ keys to me so I can be ready for my return home, and she hasn’t even showed up. I mean, what the hell, man. Seriously, I am not feeling this shit at all. She just seems like someone who’s all out for herself, and I don’t want someone like that. I should’ve known that I don’t want a girl with kids anyways.

I don’t know if I want kids due to our family’s record of having children with problems. I mean, maybe I am lucky to not have the genes that Veronica or Luis do, but they have kids with issues. One of them passed away, while my niece has mental issues. Not that I don’t love her, but  if that’s our offspring’s history, then I don’t want that.

Recovery hqs been getting better than I thought, and I’m practically walking and my foot doesn’t me as much anymore. I just wonder if I should take the crutches or a cane. I would prefer the cane, but I’ll take the crutches as well. I just hope I can afford to live off of work for another three weeks after next week because, though I do have the money to stay afloat, I do hope I can fully walk without the use of anything by the time I’m off from leave.

You know, I think I can take a cane to work if anything, my leg seems to be healing rather quickly and my nightmare seems to be more than just over. I’m pretty much able to walk. I’m giving it at least two weeks for it to heal completely, or sooner. I’m already set to take a cane instead of crutches. I know I can use a cane instead because my leg seems to be fine. Sure it’s a bit stiff, but it will heal pretty fast if I’m diligent with my own therapy on my own. I think that I’ll be fine. Finally I’ll be able to walk. Well, I can deal with the walker, but I would like a cane. This damn blister needs to heal the fuck up already. Damnit I fucking hate Prednisone.  

            j.Lo has a new single out. “I love you Papi” and it sounds OK, can’t say much  about it, but I’m glad that she’s still doing music. A true leo that has many talents. I can’t say that she can’t sing, I mean she’s doing a friggin’ album. Obviously she’s selling them, otherwise she wouldn’t be making more music. I just love how relentless she is.

P03-28-14

12: 26am

BP: 122/ 79                                                                                                     Heart Rate 97.9

 

You know, now that I had time to actually think about it, I would actually recommend the wage hike on minimum wage. I mean, if you want your business to thrive, you would hope to have the best employees working for you, correct? And if you have well paid employees, that will lead to great customer service, because they are atleast somewhat happy. You can only do so much, but hey, you are training them to be the best. Whereas if you were going the min-wage route, you wouldn’t be training them because the employees won’t care anyways, and the service will be horrible. It’s how it used to be back in the day, but dems made the min wage a thing where it was mandated and a lot of businesses just fired back by ONLY giving employees the min-wage. In doing so, customers get crappy service, because the people working for that service isn’t getting paid shit to do a great job and so your business suffers. I can understand the McDonald’s workers who don’t want  to better themselves by at least taking the management program they give out at McDs free of charge, but the small businesses that need the customers need great customer service, because that’s what most small businesses are about, customer service. The moment you treat customers like they have some type of stock in your service, they will participate more often and your business will thrive, it can’t always be the owner that gets paid the most out of all of the employees. I mean if you really want to make money, then pay your employees if you need them to do an over the top job for you because they REPRESENT YOU as part of the company. It reflects upon you as a manager or business owner as to how you want your customers to feel when they patronize your establishment. Again, the fast food places need to stop with that nonsense because they CAN afford to give better wages, so they need to stop. And I highly doubt anybody hungry is going to pass up McDonald’s if they want to eat something quick to eat. I don’t pay attention to the prices of the meals when I go to the fast food places because I rarely go there. Then again, I don’t think anybody should be aware of the prices getting jacked up at most restaurants because if someone wants to go to that restaurant for a date or something, then they will go and overlook the pricing on the menu. I can see a few cheapskates who will probably forgo the restaurant, but how big a percentage is that? It’s not that serious. I do think that most people will pay more for better food and better customer service. See, the Republicans like to argue that raising the min-wage will only make small businesses lose business or lay off employees, but I beg to differ. I think that they’ll do fine if they provide excellent service. Most customers don’t pay attention to the price of the service. AND it’s only a damn 45 cent hike anyway. That makes it $18 a week extra if it’s 40 hours a week, and less if if the hours are less. How can a business justify going out of business if they get an extra $18 going from the business itself to the employees.  See, when I actually think about it and not act all selfish about it, I can see how this hike would be pretty reasonable. I mean, if you want to run a shitty business, be my guest, but you won’t last long. A business that lasts long gives out excellent service, not just from the owner, but also from the employees who are supposed to be part of the team or part of the family.

            There are so many reasons why I don’t vote Republican. They make no damn sense, and they suck too much corporate dicks to even serve the people at all.  And that’s the funny thing about it. Because if you really think about it, if you were a small business owner, why not give your employees a reasonable wage in order to ensure great service towards your customers from employees without having to pay extra for monitoring your employees, because we all know a lot of employers tend to do that if they want a business running smoothly.

            I realized this because I was thinking about it, yet nobody had mentioned it until tonight, but I had the idea in my head for a couple of days now. I just didn’t put it down on paper. Ever since I did that, I have been reading about it all over the place. Sure some places maybe need to just raise their employees’ wages regardless(most fast food places) but the small businesses need to be business smart themselves. That would increase the moral in the work environment as well as productivity, and ensure that employees leave happy campers. If small businesses are smart enough or if they want to last, they will raise the wages regardless because the minute you do that, the minute your employees do a better job and the more business gets generated. It’s lazy employers who make no sacrifice. Those are the employers who’s business ventures fold due to not making their customers first priority. Most businesses are services, because nobody who owns a business invented something, and if they did it’s a local staple that might last long if they keep the customer service up to par. That means a lot of investing on valuable employees who will help your business thrive and even ‘cause expansion due to such a great service towards customers, how can you argue with that?Republicans who claim that raising the minimum wage will cause businesses to close up don’t have any confidence towards small businesses. They only fight for the big corporations because the big corporations make contributions towards their political parties. I am surprised that so many small business owners don’t realize that the Republicans are slapping them in the face when they make such absurd statements like “oh, businesses will fold or lay off workers” when the price of raising wages isn’t that big a deal. If conservatives would just take their heads out of their asses, they would realize that doing this would literally stimulate the economy as these low-wage workers have more money to spend in the local community. BUT they want to try and shoot it down because of big corporations. That’s the problem, everybody’s getting used to working for big corporations. I work for a small company and I have never gotten laid off in the 20 some odd years being employed by both places I worked in and one place was a local public library.  Not only will it make your employees loyal and more willing to join you in fulfilling your goals as a small business owner.

You also avoid running the risk of theft among your employees, because if they are paid well and treated well, they will not steal from you. There have been employees who have stolen straight from the cash register, because I can remember when employees at my job’s coffee  cart were stealing upwards of half of the profits from a days’ sales. The never questioned anybody about it, but they had their suspicions and were monitoring employees due to this., of course they never caught anybody who as stealing, and there were many of them who were stealing, but it’s because they weren’t getting paid shit to work there.  They were paid a little over the minimum wage, but that was because that organization wanted to look like they paid better than most entry level jobs. I had to admit though, that no matter how much you paid them morons who worked at the coffee cart, they were going to steal regardless because it was not so hard to do so. I remember some of them used to do it right in front of me. They would pocket the money in front of me as if they were not being monitored. I used to laugh at the administrators, because they were so stupid that they never tried to fire them. It was so ridiculous that they never tried anything. I’ll admit to pocketing some of the money myself, but never took more than enough to take the bus back home  and fourth. I actually took more than most of my co-workers, because I double dipped one time and found myself receiving a check for more than $490 for one week’s work. My supervisor knew that I knew what I was doing, but they were all feigning ignorance (including myself) and so I was never actually investigated nor fired. I wonder why, because I t was a lot of money that I took from them, yet I was never made an example of. I guess it was because I wasn’t typically stealing from them and they decided to let it go. It was a small thing compared to what the rest of my co-workers were doing. They would steal everything from Video tapes to CDs to DVDs and even books on gangsters. A lot of these employees. If you went to their apartments you would stumble upon library books in the tons because they would never check them out, and so I would find it in even the most honest employee’s book shelves, lol. You could tell they were library books because of the call numbers attached to the spine of the books. Call numbers are the numbers for a specific shelving system in particular libraries for you to be able to locate them on the computer and while going out to the shelves. Anyways. In most small businesses, people don’t tend to steal or do anything malicious  if they get fair compensation. It doesn’t matter that they are just getting a check. Most people want to feel like they have a stake in their employers’ establishment. Most of the small business owners are greedy and DO not want to pay their employees their just due, and so they end up with employees who practice shady shit. It’s actually the employers fault for treating their employees like shit and making them feel like they’re not worth any more than minimum wage. Employers who pay minimum wage are plain f**king greedy. They tend to have very low moral among their employees and you can usually tell if those employees are miserable. Many of the bigger companies who hire low-wage employees have millions or billions, and it’s solely due to their employees, it wasn’t all because of the owners.  Papa Johns, one time, sent out a letter that if the affordable care act were to become las,they would be forced to fire or lay off employees. That greedy f**king CEO claimed that he would lose so much money because he could afford it for his employees. This greedy f**k had a mansion in California or something, in the millions, while his employees were going to the hospital and being billed for their care at amounts that were way higher than most people. these are the benefits of having a well paid staff, but alot of conservatives and Republicans will not tell you this because they’re too busy talking about the negative shit that might not even happen. If small businesses were more considerate, they would pay their employees enough tlo live off of. Instead they give them enough to barely survive and think it’s enough, making enough money, if not more, for themselves. This is all the while complaining that they will have to close up shop if they were to pay their employees more. That’s bullshit, because if they were smart they would know that they need to step up their game and make their business(es) shine in order to make more to do better than just survive. A lot of people are just perceiving most small employers as being greedy or whatever, but I think they’re just lazy and don’t want to put in that extra effort to make more to make more than enough profits to just get by.

            In some instances I do agree that affordable healthcare should be available to everybody no matter what. I don’t’ mind paying a little extra to keep most of the population healthy if it means less disease among those who make less than me, yet interact with me. A lot of people forget that they interact with people who make less than them in more ways than one, and those employees might not take care of themselves because they can’t afford to stay away from work. It’s a damn shame that everybody thinks about the financial burden that it causes them, when in reality it is more about peace of mind. If you want to stay a healthy society, then you should keep most of the population healthy and avoid disease by helping those who need healthcare. Instead a lot of people are selfish and don’t think about the consequences of not keeping others healthy. Again, republicans and conservatives don’t tell you about this because they are too busy getting into the financial consequences. How smart of them to pull that

            I swear the micro USB connections to these new cell phones are put there on purpose so you can go out and purchase another, newer phone. The connection can get damaged easily because, first of all, it’s difficult connecting the cable to the phone without running the risk of damaging it(which you eventually do). AGAIN, the general population doesn’t pay attention to this because they are ignorant, and probably don’t think that this could possibly happen, but I’m a business major, and trust me, if I wanted people to keep buying phones form my company, yes, Iwould make products that could die off in months just to achieve that without being so damn obvious about. But when I point this out, most people are so ignorant that they will listen and then shrug it off the next day or the next hour as they post away on Facebook or Twitter. This connection thing happened to my EVO smartphone after having it for almost two years, and it so happens that it’s almost two years since I upgraded to this phone, and it’s now acting like this. It’s not surprising to me, and anybody who doesn’t believe me is just plain f**king ignorant. They will probably claim that I’m being paranoid, or whatever, but they are the ones who are stupid enough to not believe this shit couldn’t happen. And most people are duped into thinking like sheep. They really are sheep. I swear a lot of people are guilty of having this type of mentality, where they just want to be so happy that they ignore everything in order to make themselves happy. They don’t want to bother with anything, yet those things affect them after all is said and done.

…lmao, I just heard that Malloy, our governor is running for re-election. He announces this a day right after he signed a bill to raise the minimum wage. I didn’t vote for him the last time he ran, and I’m not voting for him again. There’s too much welfare going on and I need to get a republican governor so he can get rid of a lot of social programs. He was responsible for raising taxes, and if liberals can’t see how much this affected them, then they are idiots. I don’t like this governor. He must think that just because he’s gotten a big surplus, I’m going to vote for him since I’m going to an extra $55 from my taxes. BULLSHIT. Eliminate income taxes and get it over with already. Tax everything else, but not my income, homo. If you haven’tnoticed, this wasn’t announced earlier in the morning and it wasn’t done during the week, it was during the last day of the week, when shit gets glossed over and ignored by the coming Monday. I just can’t believe how slick this bitch thinks he is. Not only that, but he also announces it AFTER the jim Vicevich show, who’s very vocal about our governor. He’s a self-ascribed libertarian with a conservative bent. I think he’s extreme sometimes, but he does make sense when you think about it. A lot of liberals tend to be a bit too damn liberal, and Malloy is exactly one of them. He would legalize weed if he could. He’s already legalized the sale of beer on Sundays, raised taxes up to 6.35%, and a number of other taxes. The “Fast Track” Busway is a project that seems to be going nowhere. If anything this state is so flooded with state and union employees, who knows what’s going to happen. All I know is this governor’s pissed off a lot of people who were democrats. I got my income tax raised and now I’m getting less than I used to get for my tax refund. Thanks Malloy, but sorry, you’re not getting my vote this time around.Not that you did the first time I voted for a governor. I don’t fit the description of the “poor and needy” so I will be voting for Foley or whoever comes around and convinces me. BUT they WILL be a Republican.

Man, am I getting tired of watching Scot Haney on the TV. He’s annoying after a while. I can’t stand watching him showing his ass. He likes attention so much that he jumps in front of the camera as much as he can. There’s no stopping this little homo. Every morning he does his thing, and it’s like he’s the main attraction, yet he’s a meteorologist. It should not take much to make such fucked up guesses about the weather and calling them predictions. If I hear him talk about break milk,and eggs one more time, I’m going to scream

03-27-14

BP:  117/ 64 HR:

Good morning to all.  So I heard that I could probably go home and do my therapy at home on crutches, so I might as well do it. I am getting pretty tired of being here, so being at home with the crutches for a couple more weeks, I won’t mind at all. So I’m  OK, with it so far. We will see what happens so I’m good. I know that AETNA wants me out as fast as they can get me out so they can stop supporting me, but shit I want to go to work WITHOUT crutches or any type of extra assistance, you know. Hopefully I will be let go soon so I can recover on my own because my pain has gone away to the point that I can brave going it alone without therapists watching over me. I did pretty damn well with the crutches today, went up 38 steps and they segemented into three flights of different sets.  That was about an average of 8 steps per set and I did pretty well, so I’m waiting to be able to walk soon if I can’t already. I’m surprised they haven’t pushed me out the door, but that’s their ultimate goal: to make me whole again and be able to walk, for which I’m very thankful to them.

…One thing I hate is a faggot who acts like he’s better than me, when he’s really not. This dude must think he’s better than me or everybody in here because her sure acts like he’s spiteful and doesn’t give a shit about people. and he seems to come out with predictable shit like “the basics” lmao, he’s always saying “this is the basics” …I don’t know what the f**k he means by that, but you don’t just say “the basics”, which is some stupid way of pointing out that you get the basic food groups, I guess. I mean, mind you, there aren’t any basic food groups as all of the shit was processed on the plate. Please I’m sure that the milk, the tater tots, the greens, and the chicken is all processed shit. But this silly f**k thinks labeling shit “the basics” is going to give comfort to people. He just comes off as dumb as a rock saying some shit that sounds rehearsed. I wonder about people who have a chip on their shoulder such this moron. He acts like he’s got a snarky comment for everything, even what I was watching on TV. This is 7 O’clock in the morning and I’m not trying to hear your stupid comments when you aren’t paying attention to what the f**k is going on ON TV. Please refrain from talking shit because I don’t care for it. He must not have a life, and being that he works here, I’m sure he’s a loser. Can’t get a better job so he works here, most people that I KNOW that work in places like these aren’t too bright, nor big achievers. They tend to coast throughout life and don’t amount to shit except ending a person on Medicare or Medicaid when they get old, because their greed caused them to ignore saving for retirement or not even setting up a retirement account altogether. I’m sure most of them don’t save up for shit, and will SPEND all of their tax refund on frivolous bullshit too. Most of them are financially unstable, I know because I’ve heard them talk about their financial woes on social networks. And they want to “make it rain” when that tax refund comes through. It’s funny because a lot of people tend to point out people that do that, but don’t want to address how serious that shit is. These people will end up in destitute and then we, the tax payers, will end up footing the bill for these idiots. They’re just that undisciplined, and I think they should be reprimanded or taxed higher than me for keeping an account and keeping my credit up to par. That’s the only way people will get their shit together, with a little tough love.

…now getting back to this homo. Right, f**k his bitch ass. This bitch ass nigga can talk all the shit he wants, but he’ll never be where I’m at, as far as my observation has shown me.

…on another note. If any f**king girl were to cheat on me, whether we had broken and were not together, and then got back together, I will drop her, because IF we get back together, then that means someone’s still stuck on the other and I don’t care about it being a f**king “mistake”  the only thing I know is that you’re dumbass got weak in the pussy and you let another nigga f**k you, OK? I say this because I saw an episode of “the Steve Wilkos Show” and it was a couple who were going through trials and tribulations . OK, the guy in the relationship was trying to raise a family, but the bitch girlfriend that he had cheated on him while they were “not together” and so he decided she was no longer fit to be his girlfriend/wife/etc. and I have to agree with him. Her claim was that “we were not together”.  So that gave her reason to sleep with another nigga, yet get back to dude later on? Are you f**king kidding me? Mind you , the guy didn’t sleep with another women while him and her were “not together” obviously he wanted it to work and if they had to take time to figure shit out, fine. But don’t go f**king someone else. That can complicate shit, EVEN IF you are NOT together. I don’t take that as a reason to go f**k another nigga I remember that stupid bitch Nakia Rivera did that shit, even got a son to prove it. Good thing that bastard died though, because I sure as f**k was NOT going to raise some other nigga’s offspring. I don’t give a f**k what you say, you are no longer going to be with me. You obviously are not mature enough to put your selfish f**king needs aside and at the least try to stay true to me, so you no longer are fit for me. Good luck with your ratchet pussy because you’re a dime a dozen, cunt. She got upset and started crying and I’m f**king glad. I’m glad that he didn’t succumb to her childish shit and let her be. I would do the same shit because Kia was obviously being selfish and didn’t care enough about me to keep yourself from f**king another nigga. She also had the f**king gall to expect me to raise her bastard  son, who, by the way, passed away soon as he was born. Good for her, that’s what she deserves. She deserves that for cheating on me even though she thought we were “not together.” I don’t take that shit lightly because if I still had emotions for her and I wanted to work it out but take a break, I wouldn’t go f**king another woman. In my heart I am still with her and, UNTIL it’s done and over with, I won’t sleep with anybody nor date anybody AT ALL.  You want to be a selfish bitch? go right ahead with that bullshit, but don’t expect me to respect you. You’ll just be viewed as a hoe.  Sorry, but that’s how I am. I don’t f**k around and mess with other women when I’m wondering whether or not I still want to be with you. I don’t need extra pussy to figure that shit out. And for you to do that shit won’t make me trust you. Hell, for all I know you could catch some STD or a baby for being such a hoe. Perfect example was that psycho bitch Nakia Rivera. I have to say her name because sooner or later that low life whore will catch this online. I’m glad I can post up about her selfish ass. She’s such a whore, I should’ve posted up her naked pictures, but I won’t. I remember having a picture of her pussy because she’s  got  a pretty pussy. But that pussy is polluted with shit she doesn’t even know about. This bitch would catch some shit that she didn’t know about and THEN let me know about it. She was such a roller coaster that I got tired of her bullshit. And I know that our relationship should’ve been over, but I just loved f**king her. Sometimes she was annoying in bed with her not kissing me, and so I would just ram my dick in her so I could get some type of pleasure if all we were going to do was F**K. I’ve since changed and know that if she doesn’t cooperating with me or even communicate with me, then I don’t need her in my life, and so we’re just f**king. I’m not going to make love to her because she’s nothing but pussy to me after such a discovery.

4:45pm

BP 120/ 79

OK, so I’ll be going home sometime next week or so, and then I’ll have to use crutches to go to work. I think I’m going to take the Family Medical Leave thing so I don’t have to deal with going to work on the damn bus. Damnit I hate not having a f**king car. If I had one, I would be able to move from home to work easily with the crutches because I would be able to drive a car with my foot the way it is already. I’m getting better, but I just hate crowds, and these f**king buses are a pain in the ass to get on and take all of the time. To take them throughout the week would really f**k my life up. I don’t know. I think I just want to take time from work off though, because I really just want to get better at walking or more used to balancing myself at work and home so I can deal with the crutches, because dealing with crutches while going to work is a no no for me. I’m hoping to get to use a cab in order to back and forth to work, because seriously, I really don’t want to take the bus home or to work. It’s just too embarrassing and such a damn hassle. This is when I have to start planning on getting me a car, because damn, man, for real. I need to get me one fast soon as I get the funds, I will get me at least a bucket so I can get around in the city, because taking a damn bus is such a pain in the ass. I guess I will have to postpone school and shit, and I do hope to get better as I start to land on my feet(literally) OMG, I just feel like people are just going against me and what I feel I should be getting for some recovery care. I mean, come on, another two weeks can’t hurt at all, you know.  I can’t just get up and go these days.

 

I just want this shit to be over with already. I’ve been at it for over four weeks and now it’s coming to a head and I’m feeling nervous because I’m wondering how I’m going to deal with the transportation on my way to work. I don’t know, man, I really don’t know. I don’t want to ask anybody for a ride because seriously, I don’t want to overburden my welcome to someone’s access to a car. Oh, god, now I have to wonder what’s going to happen to me. All of this because of some prick who decided to drive onto my ass and hit me with his f**king car. I could take the bus and what not, but I just hope it’s not as hard as it looks and I hope I get to take another two or three weeks off from work because I really want to get better physically with my footing and balance. My only priority right now is my health and I don’t want to see any more f**king doctors until I get my legs to work normally. I don’t want to imagine going to work while in this condition, and yet I’m being forced to do so soon, and I’m not feeling comfortable about this at all. I just wish this was some nightmare I was going through and to wake up and see that nothing’s going on and I can just go to work fine. I am feeling way better than I did three to four weeks ago, but I still need some time to get my reliance on crutches to rest. I just want to go to work when I’m able to walk on my own. Hell, even with a cane would be OK with me. But not crutches. I hate this shit, man, for real, I hate this shit.

…

I don’t know why I do this. I start jumping to conclusions when I should just talk to her about how I feel. I guess I was just tripping off of the prednisone and it’s making me go erratic. That’s not helping me since I have a pending discharge from this rehab center. I think I can survive the crutches if I get some Family Medical Leave Time. I understand that I have about 14 weeks worth of time(maybe 10 or 11 left), so I guess that should work for me. She sounded different today. She was sort of on the mellow side. She seemed reasonable today, for some odd reason. I almost asked her if she was high on weed, because she seemed way too mellow. And she wasn’t argumentative. I was a bit open myself. I just feel that she’s there for me in ways that I’ve never had anybody else be there for me and that counts more than anything. It means more than just having a pretty face(which she has already)

03-26-14

Supplies needed:                                                                                                                     BP:

Shaving stuff(blades, cream, clippers?)                                                                     around 145/ 94

 

What a day today will be. I think I will probably pay my rent and my light bill because I’m sure they are up there in sums. And OK, I messed up with my baby Moreen. She’s a sweet heart and she’s done a lot for me considering she didn’t have to and she only knows so much about me. Well, she’s getting to know a lot of personal information as well, and I should at the least call her more often than she does me. I just want her to show me she likes me. I just have to make a compromise and realize that maybe her way of showing me she likes me is not so obvious, but it’s just there. Maybe it’s better than being so obvious, because I DO get turned off when a girl is very direct. I don’t think I should judge this place too much, but the administrators are seriously cutting corners when it comes to supplies to the residents. I mean come on, watering down the fruit juice cocktails just to save a buck? dollars every day? Most of the damn juice tastes like medicine. Then there’s how much they give you liquid wise. These motherfuckers are always giving you shit in 4 ounce cups instead of 8, which is pretty much half of what is suggested as a serving by USA standards. You know, like 8 glasses of about 8 ounces each of water a day. So now I have to drink about 16 in order to meet the suggested “quota” for me to keep a healthy regimen or keep my healthy supply.

4:30am

I believe we have some blizzard warning this morning.  Next week will go upwards of 50+ so I’m happy about that. I have said since I got into this place that when I leave I won’t need to wear a jacket/coat to go back home on my own because the weather will be so nice, it will not matter. My walking is getting better and I think I’m ready to put some weight on my now-recovering right foot. I still get a bit of pain around my right lower ribs(#11, & 12) and so I am a bit stiff in moving that area around much without fear of doing some partial damage. Even if the damage is minute, it could be big for me because I don’t know how much it can affect the rest of my endocrine system. I have done my taxes and so will be getting my refund some time before may(I hope anyways) the last time I did that it took me about a month or so before I received it so I’m hopeful that it won’t take long before I receive that loot.

On a side note, people are acting ridiculous about the UConn game, paying hundreds for tickets when they can always watch it at home. I wouldn’t pay for that shit no matter how big a fan I was for anybody. I like the red sox, and I would go to a game, but I wouldn’t go to a world series game because I know it will cost me a pretty penny and I’ll be damned. I’d rather just go to a regular game and even then, it better be worth while. No stupid sports game is really worth going to watch live. I did go to a regular Yankees game when I went to New York with my boy Hector and his friend, this Sicialian chick Guissepena(however you spell that ugly b**ch’s name) who was attracted to me.

Let me tell you about this psycho bitch. you wanna talk about a walking contradiction. Well, Guissepena was just that. She used to call black people “niggers” and shit even though she had dated and African national student while going to CCSU. She even talked shit about Puerto Ricans all the while trying to fuck me. This bitch’s nose was wide open because everybody in her international group was on her bra strap except for me. I was the one she wanted and I used to play with her dumbass because she was such a hypocrite. She would talk all of this shit about Puerto Ricans yet knew nothing about them. She would even talk shit about her own people in her group of friends whom she hung out with. She was some foreign chick who loved talking shit about Americans yet didn’t look at how ugly  she was herself.  First of all she was fat, there was no hiding that shti, and she was very self-conscious of that. Even still, Hector’s fat ass and the rest of that international group, which was comprised of a bunch of fucking ugly South Americans who wouldn’t recognize beauty if it hit them in the face.  They were all trying to fuck her ugly ass, or so she would keep saying to me. I didn’t really care because she wasn’t a great fuck to begin with. It wasn’t so hard to fuck her. I mean she’s ugly so being with a pretty boy(me of course) was going to be a big deal for her so of course she opened up her legs like any Euro slut would (I bet you them bitches are easier to fuck than American bitches, J) anyways, this bitch who everybody called “Juicy” wasn’t juicy at all. She looked like a wombat, and her pussy stank like she hadn’t washed her ass. She always acted weird when it came to fucking with me. She was always trying to put me down, but I’m an analytical person who will figure out your flaws faster than you figure out mine. And so I would fuck with her the same way she would with me just so she could leave me the fuck alone and YET she still was trying to get with me. We kissed a couple times and we had sex. Well if you even want to call that sex, then OK, but to me it wasn’t. I don’t consider her special nor will I ever. She’s just an ugly person period. Her personality seemed like that of a miserable bitch who didn’t know her left from her right. She wasn’t very smart. She would dabble into socialist politics but that was about it. Oh, and she was a fucking Buddhist, lol…she would kill me with her bullshit because I don’t believe in religion. Any religion is made up shit anyways so I would make fun of her not killing the roaches that were inhabited her apartment, lmao!!!  If anything she wasn’t the best of anything. Come to think of it, I have never had a great experience with a girl from CCSU. Even Tanya, who happened to be from Hartford, wasn’t that great a girl to be with. Anyways, this “Juicy” character was just someone to kill time with and she was annoying the shit out of me. Talk about having a stalker on your ass. This bitch came to my place one time and I really hate introducing my girlfriends to my neighbors or even family because these bitches try and get the best out of my family though we haven’t established any type of relationship, so we end up with my family or friends liking the girl while I don’t like her and it becomes this big pain in the ass thing where people who don’t need to know about her ask about her all fucking day and I have to deal with that. For the most part I ask them to NOT ask me about the bitch because they don’t mean shit to me for the most part. It’s happened about two or three times, where these dumbasses jump to the defense of these stupid broads and it’s annoying. I had Evelyn back in the 90s, then there’s this bitch Juicy who was being defended by Hector’s fat ass only because he was trying to act like “Captain Save-A-Hoe” with her. I bet you that was his motive all along. Dumbass never gets to fuck anybody and so he thinks putting moves on his boy’s girls is the thing to do. That’s one reason I don’t really care for him. He’s too selfish and his fat as is going to die pretty soon if he doesn’t lose weight. I mean he’s over 380 lbs and he’s only 38. I’ll bet you any fucking money that bitch is diabetic and isn’t taking care of himself. He’s already had a bunch of health scares of which he’s opened up to me about, but I doubt they ever went away. He eats like a horse, and so he’s priming himself up for a heart attack if he hasn’t had one already. I have people around me who think they are better than me, but I fare better in health and finances because I live a healthier and more frugal life than most of them. They will never get ahead of me no matter what they really think. You can be good at one thing, but if you’re so stubborn to change your lifestyle for a healthier one(like most people I know) then you’re just asking for an early death. Hank’s already had a stroke at a young age himself, and it sucks because hes’ a somewhat smart guy. His diet, though, sucks, he goes on diets every other day and he needs to change his lifestyle. No breaks, no cheating at all. Not even on weekends. People that give themselves those “cheating” ideas don’t get far because they are really just kidding themselves if they think they are going to lose weight at all. Hector’s done the same shit and he eventually just gives up after three or so days.

I swear some white people just eat the nastiest shit in the world. I just saw something that was called the “steamed” burger, that’s served at this place called “The Lunch Box”  and it looked like some slop that was covered with yet some more slop called “cheese” lol…
            I can’t wait for Scot Haney’s faggot ass to get off the fucking air. He’s so fucking annoying it’s not even funny. He’s the biggest flamer on the morning news channel. He’s always just showing off with his off kilter singing instead of doing his fucking job,which is reporting the weather. Just stop it, fag. I don’t care what you think of my comments towards your inclination to suck dicks instead of pussy. I don’t care for you homos anymore because you have bit off more than you can chew and it’s starting to piss me off as a straight male. I used to be OK with it, but now you faggots have gotten to the point that you want more rights than straight people. I don’t think so. You need to accept that your is just off. I don’t give a fuck what you want to call it. It’s disgusting to watch you fags kissing in public. You should keep that to yourself if I have to do the same with my straight girlfriend. Yeah, I’m gay bashing right now, but it’s because these faggots have been trying to equate their struggle to that of black people. I mean, get the he fuck out of here. You will never know what it’s like to be treated like black people and how they have been so severely damaged on a psychological level that it transcends generations to this day.

I hope a gange of students and so-called “hard workers” get laid off due to this minimum wage increase. They don’t deserve it just because they didn’t strive to do better while in High school. Then again, some of these motherfuckers have never graduated high school, AND they want a fucking raise? Are you fucking kidding me? Yeah, sure, the GAP can hike their wages to be “fair” to their workers, but who’s to say other retailers will follow suit? I truly think that Obama’s just the worst president ever to reside in the white house. He’s literally disappointed me, but then again, I never liked the democrat motto of helping everybody no matter how bad their situation was. I have to give up my own fucking money to help these parasites and it’s pissing me off. It’s no wonder I’ve been voting Republican lately. That or independent.  More than likely I’m a libertarian than an independent voter. …OK, so I just found out where the maintenance people put my shit and I swear these assholes are dumb as a bag of rocks. They should do their fucking job correct and not fuck the whole thing up. I swear these morons are the bottom of the barrel when it comes to employment, and they hate their jobs for the most part. They should just do their job as it’s supposed to be done and stop acting like they’re smart and know how to do shit. Just follow directions, morons. There’s a lot of reasons why I look down on them. They never achieved shit while growing up, and now they’re not shit today. They complain about their jobs, but haven’t done shit to get out of that situation. They never did try to better themselves, instead they sulk in their misery. I am not a fan of most maintenance workers because they like to distract you from paying attention to what their doing by chatting you up. The second they befriend you, all of a sudden it’s offensive to ask them to clean something up. That’s why the white people at my job tend to NOT talk to the maintenance workers, because it’s all business, nothing personal. It’s crazy, but if you don’t pay attention, you’d miss that. See a lot of maintenance workers tend to be minorities and if you’re a minority who’s above them, they feel they have some type of connection to you and you’ll be cool with them. That’s why I don’t talk to them too often, because they get lost in conversation in chatting me up and forget to do their jobs. I remember how the maintenance employees would do the same over at HPL. This one guy, Leo Lafitte, who was PR and French, would chat you up to the point that he’d lost track of time and ended up doing less than was supposed to be done in maintenance due to his talking. He just talked way too much. Come to think of it most of the maintenance workers talked too damn much, and they should’ve just done their jobs. There was this bitch who works at my job looking to get my position, and so she asked me what was required to gain a position such as mine. Well, if I were to answer that, I’d say “well,a bout twenty years experience” because you can’t just sign up for the job, you have to work your way up through the ladder. And yeah, I worked in a place where I could have moved faster, but due to favoritism(oh, yeah, they don’t want to admit that, but there was a lot of that going on) I was always overlooked. I didn’t mind it because I WAS going to school anyways, so it really wasn’t hindering my progress. A lot of my co-workers at the time were idiots to rely on that place giving them a promotion. They didn’t bother with school to make more money or even make a better life for themselves. And so when they got laid off, they pretty much were given what they deserved, because they should have gone to school to make a better life for themselves if they can’t start a business on their own.  They were idiots thinking that since they had a somewhat rican as a boss, he was going to get them a promotion real fast. A lot of them came from the projects and had, as I label it, that “welfare mentality” where they felt that they were entitled to some position in life without doing much to get there. What a bunch of idiots. Conversations with them were so simple that it wasn’t worth talking to them once I left the job. I didn’t relate to any of them because I was seeing past them. I have no connections to them whatsoever and I’m glad none of them work where I work at. I have seen a few of them trying to get a job at my job, but only to not get hired. And it’s ghetto bitches like Monica or that African dumb fuck looking to get a job that was below them. I wasn’t trying to “hook” them up either. They were all clamoring to me to see what they could do to get the job, but I am not going to help them out. They didn’t help me out in any fucking way whatsoever. Come to think of it, nobody really helped me out   Not even my former supervisor. He’s just as guilty of not helping me move up the ladder.  I thank him for giving me a job, but in reality, I really helped myself get ahead. I mean, when I was promoted, you should have seen how hung over I was that day. I had been drinking so much, that I was open to conversate forever. Lol. I was so hungover and I aced the interview. I had my future supervisor there who was very tribal about helping minorities stay on top. He was there to chime in and give me that chance, for which I am thankful. All in all a lot of people did chip in to suggest my being hired, but most of them didn’t do much afterwards. I went to school all by myself and I made myself who I am today. I could’ve been dead or in jail, but I’m not because I realized early on in life that I didn’t want to end up like most Puerto Ricans. Working a 9-5 and accepting the scraps that the higher-ups give you was not what I wanted in my life. And I don’t go against most higher-ups because going against them really hinders your progress in any organization. Yeah some idiots call me an ass kisser, but don’t realize that they aren’t gaining anything by hating on me. They’re really hurting themselves in the long run because they are defeating themselves without even knowing it. I laugh at the people who doubted me, because they were too busy chasing fast money. I know some of them have been involved in crimes by now, and it’s sad because they should’ve just gone to school, but they have this “welfare mentality” where, again, they expect shit to be handed to them on a silver platter. I don’t know why it is I haven’t found someone who’s like me. I think that would be the only person I would be able to get along with because they would understand how I got here and why I haven’t stopped moving until I get to where I want to get.

            OK, our illustrious president is just looking like a fucking idiot every day that goes by and he needs to just step down already. Nobody cares to hear about his family visiting China just because they’ve never been there before. OMG, most of us haven’t been to China ourselves, so why is it a big deal for his family to do so? His daughter, Malia though, I like her. Can’t wait till she turns 18. I’d bang her. Though not as a young girl, but as a woman, of which she’s turning into. And I’ve seen many an actress turn into beautiful women who were already cute as children. Like Meagan Goode, Natalie Portman, all of the Cosby girls, I’ll bet even the girl from the “Bernie Mac” show. Most girls turn out to be fine as hell as adults, although the girl from “Blossom” didn’t fare out too well. She was always ugly to me, but her friend, Six, was a cutie, as well as Alyssa Milano. I can go on and on, but all I know is I’d like to fuck a lot of young girls who have grown up to be beautiful women, except for Keisha “Rudy” Knight Pullam. She’s way too young for me to try and do anything with her. And she’s a cutie, but I don’t think so. Evenbrandy was cute as a button, and I would still date her, but she’s around her 30s now, so she’s good.

BP: 124/ 74 as of 7:40 am

1. So far, after being her for almost a month, I can say this much is trending on TV
2. More shows on paternities
3. Conservative radio talk show host Bill Cunningham is hosting a show doing the same shit that Maury is doing. He’s such a hypocrite.
4. Queen Latifah has a pretty good show that looks better than I thought it would look
5. Steve Harvey has a Talk show himself, and it’s not so bad, he has flexibility to be himself and it seems like a laid back show.
6. There’s a show called “the Doctors” on Fox channel 61, which finally covered Sarcoidosis even if briefly. Hey, atleast it was covered. It’s a pretty educational show, almost like Dr. Oz’s show, though it covers more than women’s health issues, unlike Oz,
7. There have been about four people in CT that have been involved in a “hit and run” situation like me, where the fucking driver drove away. There are two in which the driver didn’t stop and just fled, while the other two I believe the driver’s stuck around. One was a teacher and the other one was a 8 yr old girl who were struck
8. There have been around two or three murders happen in CT, including others who were struck and left in the hospital fighting for life.

Morphine sure is dehydrating I have to drink mad water to keep from getting dry mouth, though I need it for my injuries. I don’t know how much more I need it, but I’ll keep taking it in order to keep the pain at bay.

I’m getting better at walking with a walker, though my insurance company wants me to go home and take it from there. They must be out of their fucking mind. I can walk, but that doesn’t mean I can get up the stairs, and there are 40 steps to get up to my apartment. Lord know how I’m going to get up there, even though I’d like to go back home, I have to make sure I don’t injure myself while trying to walk up or down the stairs, which I can’t do on my own and to go to work with a fucking walker is ridiculous. I don’t want to do that at all.

            I get surprised at the ignorance that runs rampant amongst these silly ass Puerto Ricans and morenos living in the facility. It’s almost like they never made it past elementary school. Every single one of them is plain ignorant to the max. I can’t stand people like that, but that’s who I’m surrounded by. There’s the fat bitch Luz who’s got more kids than she can imagine, BITCH should be her middle name because that’s what she is. Then there’s Blanca, another ignorant bitch who feigns having pain. She acts like she’s got pain in her stomach and when I tell her to get it checked, she goes back to normal. I mean, you want to. Talk about someone needing attention. I don’t like any type of attention from anybody and this bullshit with these residents is funny. I just found this dumbass named Alberto was being rough with the nurses. It’s because his dumbass has HIV/AIDS. Should have used a condom or NOT shared needles with infected people, plain and simple. Oh, well, fuck him. So long as he doesn’t touch me. Oh, I will kill him if he tries to put his hands on me.

            I’ve heard that maybe I could do the rest of my therapy at home, which I don’t think I’ll mind as long as I don’t have to go to work. I will stay home and.do whatever as long as I can. I was told I might get a crutch to work with, so I won’t mind it as long as I don’t get hurt. My number one priority is to get myself walking again, and once I get to walking, I’m not going to stop. I will have to walk more often so I can get in shape. I’m going to exercise even if it kills me. I have to do this because it’s for my benefit and my health, damn it. I am also going to cut down on my drinking as it is front and center when it comes to most of my problems arising and almost killing me. I will still do home brewing, but just not strong brews. I love my beer, but I like the taste of a good beer, not the alcohol in it. I don’t’ need to get drunk to enjoy them. Man, by the time I come home, my brew is, hopefully, going to be nice and rich and creamy as a chocolate stout should be. I just hope it doesn’t go bad on me.  know I took a lot of chances with this batch, but I just want to get a good batch for once. So far I’ve had only one good batch and that was the dark ale. It wasn’t bad. Actually it was pretty good. It tasted like a cream ale, which was not bad. The thing was that I thought it was off for my taste since I had never tasted a cream ale before. Now I know, and I will try that recipe again, J. I started my last batch on January 21, 2014, and will be back by the first week of April. I will have had it fermenting for almost three months in April. So, like ten weeks or so. Of course the bulk of the time was because of these injuries I sustained that got me into the rehab center, but I think I’ll survive. I hope I do get to go home and get my therapy at home. I won’t mind crutches, but a walker, hell no. I’m not trying to get into the bus with one of those. A crutch or two won’t hurt, and if I can do the therapy at home, then fine. I’ll just practice walking outside in the fresh air and eat my own shit while waiting to go back to work. I think it would be easier to recover while at home because I can do the exercises while at home and I can always take the time off from work. I don’t want to go to work while I’m still unable to fully walk. I want to at least walk with a cane or something.  I hope whoever hit me dies in a car crash, though, because they deserve to die. I didn’t deserve to get hit by a fucking car.

 

11: 18 PM

BP:       129/82

97 bpm