104-02-14                                                                                                                                                            1:50 am

 

Hey, good morning,I always wake up around this time, I think I like “King of Queens” it’s probably the best show on TV. Ray Romano’s  show sucks ass.

I can just imagine what that son of African immigrants is like:

He’s probably never heard of Farrahkhan and although the minister will praise him for giving a good light to the African nation, that kid won’t acknowledge anything about him. I can imagine the black professor from Harvard hoping the child takes his class on African American History, which the student will probably NOT take, and so that professor will be pissed. Trust me, he’s going to have African americans, not Africans themselves, but the American ones, hating his ass for being so smart. And I’ll bet you his parents alone don’t care for African Americans themselves. I’ve seen them interact and I know they don’t get along with one another. They don’t have nice thing to say about each other. I remember a black co-workers, who I think is as dumb as a rock, was saying one time that when she goes to that hair salon, she doesn’t like it when the ones who service speak in their African language. Saying some shit like “this isn’t Africa, speak English”. That’s just a taste of what someone of her ignorant ilk do to make themselves feel better. It’s a typical way for black people to put down Africans, because Africans frown upon blacks themselves. I’ve heard them brag about being so ambitious once you get to America, but they never once mention the shit they could accomplish in Africa since Africa gives them no opportunities. My thing is: Why is it that America is the ONLY place that you can conquer the world. Why not try it in Africa yourself. I think that once you get to overcome the tyrants of the African nations, will you be truly successful. It seems to me that being in the U.S. is more of a cop out than anything. It’s nice to see a person being accepted to a white elite school, but what’s the use if you have to pretty much lose your own identity(trust me, he’s lost that years ago) to assimilate to a white standard.  It’s sad to think that we have been brain-washed to believe that a white standard of living is the way to go.  Again, I’m not hating on him, but I would also blame his parents for pushing him to think like a white man, at the same time I commend them, because at the time, it’s all one can do to get ahead. Once you have the cards stacked against you, you have to change the way you play the game in order to beat your opponents. Even  if it means joining them to beat them.  and this Kwasi character didn’t just pick out some sily ass program to get into, he chose either Cardiology(heart surgeon) or Neurology(brain surgeon) I mean, damn. It’s not like the black kids at this school I work at that choose easy subjects like “African History” or some other easy shit where you become successful, but you’ll never be as smart as this Kwasi kid. It’s OK, but it just seems like they took the easy way out. My ex took Spanish as her major at a some-what ivy league school.  It wasn’t the best ivy league, but it was good enough for her to get a job afterwards.She’s a Spanish teacher, which, isn’t that much of an accomplishment because I know Spanish so I can imagine how far I would get with such a degree.  And the thing about this Kwasi kid is watch him get a white girl as his girlfriend and eventually wife. Those extreme nigroes go that route because they feel that black women aren’t smart enough for them, or they are too strong for them to deal with. Even African women themselves. Trust me, they are as brainwashed as the next person about white influence.  I just saw a story on Darius Rucker, another black man who’s transcended boundaries by being a country star and making a name for himself in that genre. He’s also married to a white girl.  I’m just glad I’m not black, because I would hate to have to go through that mental stress of being black myself.  It’s bad enough that we as latinos/Hispanics are still trying to find our niche in this country, but to be a black person and still be struggling after being here for 400+ years is crazy as hell.  Even latinos have made strides whereas black folks have not.  Again,I’m not hating on this African kid, but that is how people will see him. Just like they saw Obama go on the become president(though no parents from Ghana). I wonder if they will question his place of birth in being from Africa and NOT from New York, lol.  Let’s face it, white people have done this to themselves. The world is brown, not white and they are just trying to survive as a race. The U.S. is the first victim to succumbing to brown people, and it’s not looking good  for them these days.

  And I’ll bet you they(both white and black people alike) will also say that he was chosen as an Affirmative Action move. Some people just can’t accept that he is just smart and determined.

Woke at at around noon, and I am waiting to eat some lunch. I hope that I am still being fed since I was discharged from physical therapy today. I am no longer supposed to go and exercise my feet, but I do have to stay put until fucking Friday. Why’s it that everybody is questioning why I am still here till Friday except for the damn administrators. I am still taking morphine even though pain is no longer present in my system.  I only feel a little discomfort, but that’s it, nothing to make a big deal out of, but still. I could get addicted to morphine if I stay on that shit, so why don’t these fucking nurses notice this? I am just pissed off with the way these people have been acting lately. It’s been happening since Tuesday, well, more like Friday, when that skinny white bitch talked to me about my exit out of here. How am I supposed to leave without you guys providing a damn ride to my house? Eh? If that’s the case then what the fuck was I doing on the ride over here? I didn’t ask for this shit. I just said I wouldn’t mind it no need to take me there, but I’m thinking the assholes at St. Francis figured I couldn’t afford to stay over there, and took me to this shit hole.   I don’t think I am going to praise these people anymore because they are starting to piss me off as my stay comes to an end at this place.  They are giving me reasons why they get complaints from current and former residents of this place. And to think that my ex used to work at this place. I am surprised that she doesn’t work here anymore.  It doesn’t seem like it would require people to be skilled at anything since most of the workers have done something they usually don’t do one time or another. I mean, not to be mean, but Jenny wasn’t much of an achiever and probably would’ve been stuck here for the rest of her life. Anyways, this one lady, who didn’t have training on a transport handle my transportation like an idiot. First she stopped the damn van where, once you open up the ramp, my wheelchair was going to run onto a snow bank. So this bitch pushes me onto the damn bank, then proceeds to move me, in the wheelchair, around the whole fucking van haphazardly without looking towards the front to make sure there was no fucking car there to hit me once she pushed me toward, because that’s what this twat did to me. What a fucking cunt. I swear I wanted to slap her for being such an idiot. I could’ve gotten hit by a fucking car, yet this bitch, just rushed me past the fucking van towards the open area where cars could go through and possibly hit my ass while on the chair. I swear that bitch was fucking idiot.

Anyways, now I have to call the Human Resource Department and talk to them about taking FMLA time off because I just received the form yesterday and I have to figure out what to do with the forms now since they are about a week late from the time she posted that I had so I’m pissed because everybody is acting like a bunch of idiots when it comes to my insurance and my employment situation. How the hell are you going to tell me that you were going to fax this place the forms and didn’t do so. I could’ve sworn that it was going to be faxed, and not sent by mail. It’s not like I was ignoring the process, but I wasn’t in the greatest state of mind. I was drugged half of the time to think about what was happening to my damn coverage. I was too busy trying to get myself better.  I wasn’t prepared for this shit where I had to fill out a form near the end of my stay to find out I’m late for eligibility for my benefits. I can’t fucking stand how lackadaisical people are acting. I was not responsible for getting hit by some asshole who paid no attention to traffic lights.  I just hate how people can act when they have to do things for you. Like they don’t feel that I need to be helped or something. First it was St. Francis and their shoving me the fuck out of their facilities,even though I my apt. was near them. then it’s this dumbass social worker who acts as though she’s too lazy to do shit in here for me. She’s promising me shit but never comes up with results. I’m still waiting on her to tell me about the fax that she supoosedly sent to my job. It’s just pissing me off that people are acting so damn loose with their job responsibilities. I feel like I’m going to end up with another fucking debt that I do not deserve.

                It’s funny to see Queen Latifah having her own talk show, acting all jolly and shit like she’s enjoying that shit. I mean, if I see KRS-One doing a talk show and acting all happy-go-lucky, that ‘s going to be the end of me, lol. I swer I will jump off a roof.

BP: 120/71                                                                                                                                                                       HRate 92

Chef Derrick Walton: Homeless person who worked his way up to being a restaurant owner.

Back to the lab, I’m waiting for my damn stay to end on Friday, and I can’t wait to get the fuck out already. Thank god the days are flying by, I can see myself walking home already. J I will have to pay something for my insurance plan, for which I will have to take on a payment plan (the bills just keep piling on!!!)

I noticed that people have been acting funny around me though, like they know I’m leaving and their miserable asses need to keep sizing me up or something. I don’t care though. My time is up on Friday and I’ll be glad that I’m gone. I do hope I can leave earlier than most times though, because I’d like to leave fast as possible. I don’t care what the fuck they do, and if I have to pay for my own fucking cab, I will take the cab. Fuck it, I don’t care anymore. My girl was right, if I was given two days instead of a specific day, then just take whichever they give you, right? The thing I hate is that I’m going to have to pay for that shit, well, fuck it, I will also take time off as well to get my ass correct.

Oh, General Motors CEOs are acting like they didn’t know what the hell was going on, and have been participating in secret activities. Are you serious? I’m glad that they are under fire, because 13 people have passed away due to their inherent negligence. And this is after they were bailed out by the American people, I say the people because this fucking President bailed them the fuck out. I hate this fucking POTUS. He’s been fucking up since day fucking one, bailing them out was the first of many errs on his part.  I find it funny how a lot of shit has been coming out of the woodworks due to a lot of malfeasance. I’m sure this dumbass POTUS should be

How fucking annoying that people want to know who won the lottery. Who fucking cares. I mean damn, really? What’s with people trying to figure out who he is anyways. I sure as hell don’t care about who he is. And who is Brooke Burke anyways, and what do I care about this stiletto heel murder. I am so glad that this week is flying by so that I can get back home. I’m starting to get home sick and I’m hoping that my days of not walking are gone forever after these next three weeks, but I know I’ll still have to keep moving along. I’ll still have to see this doctor on April 14, but I think I’ll be fine by then. I will be gone for the rest of the year and I don’t care if I don’t come back. I’m glad I went through this, but I need to get home already. I am starting to feel like I don’t belong here and people here are starting to get annoying. Usually this happens as people are getting ready to leave an area where they’d rather not be at. That or the person leaving distances themselves from everybody because of the fact that they won’t see them ever again. People just come and go in and out of your life.  I have no need to get to know anybody over here. They’re all pretty much non-descript to me and I won’t need them anyways. Anyways, I’m out of here so fuck them all.

I can’t believe that Carla Nash will not have her day in Court. This damn state is so full of shit. They knew damn well that the bitch who was Nash’s boss had that damn chimp yet they did nothing to avoid what happened to Carla. Now she has to try and get some type of peace of mind only for this corrupted state with its stupid ass governor to deny her the right to sue the state. Well, isn’t that peachy. I feel for her. I think she should get the money to at least pay off her medical bills. It IS because of the state, who were aware of the chimp’s strength and potential to attack a human being, that this woman is disfigured and blind.  I can’t even imagine what the family’s going through with the outcome of the attack.  All she wants is to get her life back to normal, and she’s been living like this for a couple of years now.  I can just imagine who’s saying that she shouldn’t have been there to begin with. I guess she could’ve stayed home or whatever. I can’t say anything about the situation, but she’s in terrible shape, while that crazy bitch is dead. Good for the other lady to fucking die, now Carla has to live with her disfigurement. Man, I have gone through a lot and this almost losing my ability to walk really woke me up. I can’t keep drinking the way that I have. It will eventually kill me or I will kill myself sooner or later if I keep it up. I need to wake up and stop fucking around. I can’t afford to die and I can’t afford to keep running into these problems.