I think I have figured out the difference between the Republican and the Democrat...notice I am not talking about the Conservative and the Liberal. There two types of liberals: liberal politicians and liberal voters...the liberal middle-class voters are inherently biased or discriminating to an extent that they do now want anybody who is no within their social status to live around them because it might fuck their property value, which is being controlled by upperclass.  The liberal politicians always promise them to keep the poor and undesirables out of their neighborhoods and keep their properties in good standing by not EVER bringing in programs such as affordable housing into their areas. They also dangle that shit around them to keep them voting for democrats that will keep the undesirables away from their areas, that is their carrot-stick bullshit game and everybody, if they have not noticed yet....are dumb as fuck to not notice. I love watching politics because I am not used to hearing this shit from politicians and actual regular people who know nothing about politics and fail to realize they are LITERALLY BEING FUCKED by Democrats all day long while under the guise of being for the people when they are really for themselves. TTYL

I am done with the Smartphone...

OK, so I am done with the Goddamned smartphone. Once I got back my internet it just made me realize how much I don't really care for a smart phone. most of the shit that comes to me information-wise I do not need to read while I am on the go and I don't care for texting anyways, so why the fuck even deal with a smartphone at all. It's just a big waste of money really. it is also cost-effective since I don't really need to look up shit while I am on the go....so many people do that it's ridiculous.

fuck bitches

I swear...women aren't shit but sluts and tricks. I am not kidding.  This one girl I thought was good for me, but she all-of-a-sudden decided to not talk to me. I'm glad that I have decided to take my time in getting to know them because it would help me in finding out if they are compatible with me. So this bitch decided she no longer wants to communicate with me anymore. Since I met the bitch online on a FREE dating site, she could've been two niggas who wanted to beat my ass up and rob me for my phone, and so fuck the hoe. She was getting more information from me than I did from "her" so fuck her. I swear she was a phony. I can imagine going to see her ass in Middletown. Bitch is Jamaican and was living here two months removed from living in fucking Mississippi. Are you fucking kidding me?  Nobody who's carribean comes from the islands and moves to a fucking state as Mississippi because there are no fucking jobs that carribean people can't get out in those states.  she's got two kids and yet I have never heard the girl in the background while she was on the phone with me. I just can't fuck with her bullshit.  it's funny because this bitch knows where I work, what I do at my and probably where I live. She already knows my last name while I don't know hers. this is why her not getting back to me for any fucking reason doesn't bother me anymore.  she never gave me reason to believe in her nore trust her shady ass.  She was living in CT for two months when I met her, and all of a sudden found and apartment, which needed to be furnished because she didn't have shit.  It made me wonder if I should keep the relationship becuase sooner or later she was going ask me about spending money on her place being furnished. FUCK THAT. you're not my wife bitch. the fuck I look like doing that shit. Another Jamaican bitch who flunked my litmus test, lol...oh, well. on to the next one.

So, today, I did some yoga, and I can tell you right now that I am out of shape. I have a gut that doesn't quit and I'm just praying that my workouts give me some type of relief because my meds are keeping me fat as all fucking hell. anyways. I am  hopeing to get rid of all of this fat by dieting and pretty much living the life that I ignored due to the meds, which wasw being more active and eating/ cooking healhtier. I am pretty much done with dating and I don't really care to talk to any woman about anything until I feel like I am comfortable with myself around a female. All of the broads I've dealt with lately are either ghetto or just plain fat or stupid. I have my standards, and I'm not going to forgo them just because I want some pussy. I can't just fuck a girl anymore. I have to get to know them because of the STDs that are around. having caught some of the bacterial shit, I'm not trying to risk my life and having Sarcoidosis doesn't help either. Most of the broads I've talked to just get on my nerves after a while.

this crazy bitch must think I'm stupid pulling the shit that she has been pulling for the past month or so.

Moreen

So, I bumped into this girl I used to talk to, Moreen(or Maureen, the spelling wasn't even correct for all I know) She was at this Supermarket that I frequent, and she decided to talk to me. I didn't even recognize her, though I thought I'd seen her, but wasn't sure. Anyways, she was talking to me like she gave a damn about me. I didn't really care to talk to her so I just gave her small talk as we all do with people you don't want to have a confrontation with. I realized then that she's not all that great looking, because the girl I'm talking to is waaaaaaay better looking, AND has a great personality,  :).......anyways, after we said what we said I kept it moving. Yes, I have to document this, because it was interesting to see her after not hearing from her for so long. I mean, why even talk to me except to save face? I didn't care to talk to her, but she recognized me after not talking to me or even seeing me for a very long time. Anyways, she went her way and I went mine. I don't get why women act as though they have to talk to you like they need to explain some shit that they forgot to do. It was just funny seeing her and she doesn't look all that great when you compare her to her photos online. Anyways, that is a bit of what I wanted to talk about. I liked her a while ago, but after no contact, do you REALLY think I'm going to stick around? just leave me the fuck alone, bitch. I'm not into your dumbass anymore so you can keep it moving. If you see me again, just leave me the fuck alone. I don't need you and you already indicated that you don't need me, so whatever. I find it funny that she wanted to talk to me after ignoring for what seems like months. I find someone who makes me happy, and I have to bump into this bitch. Sorry, but she's a bitch. 42 with two kids and acts like some dumbass teenager who wants a man who's got everything, but doesn't bother putting in the work to get herself ahead. Whatever, man. I'm not with that. At least the girl I'm talking to knows what she wants and will go for it rather than wait for a man to fulfill her wishes. She'll be waiting for a very long time if she's trying to do that with me as I am still in school trying to fulfill my dreams. I also noticed that she has no ass so it's cool to not deal with her, :) I can't deal with a girl who's got no figure. I do thank her for her help, but that's where it ends.

04-03-14

BP: 118/68                                                                                                      HR 83

OK, I can’t go to sleep because I have a splitting headache now. What the hell, man. I think I should stop taking the morphine because I think it’s messing with my head. That jimmy fallon is a trip. I don’t know why they keep checking my “vitals" I’m thinking because of the prednisone I’m still being monitored, but hey, I’m down the 20 mg on Prednisone so I should be OK. I don’t have high blood pressure or it’s not so high so I’m doing OK so far. I am having a full blown f**king headache at the moment though (12:50 am) and I’m

Wow that damn pill knocked me out, I must’ve been out for hours. I know I went to sleep around 3 am or something. Anyways, it was cool to do so,J..I was told that I was a good patient when I was asking for some Tylenol after being the option to take THAT or OxyContin, lo The nurse said “you’re  good patient, most of the other residents take the DRUGS” lol….wow, that says a lot about the people that reside over here. Either they are addicts/former addicts, or they don’t really care about how they pollute their bodies. And then they wonder why they are so addicted to s**t that they shouldn’t be addicted to.  I’m just not one of those people who have an “addictive” personality. I’m not prone to addiction because I’ve never had such a f**ked up life that I need to self-medicate to escape life. Escapism isn’t my thing, especially the chemical type.  Maybe I can do it holistically, but not with no f**king chemicals. That’s way too much for me to handle. So today was the original date of my departure, or it was my preferred day to go home, but I guess I will be taking off tomorrow. As long as Chelsea fills this form that needs to be filled I will be OK with what I: have to do to get this FMLA business going on. I hope she doesn’t forget to fill it out because I need to be off from work for another 2 weeks or so that I can get myself a cane before I go back to work.  And I cannot wait to go back to work. I am so tired of being in this f**king place it’s not even funny. I’m ready to get the f**k out. I am all set. All I need is this forms filled and I will be OK. Thank God for this lady over at Human Resources. I need all the assistance I can get, J

Lmao, the HPD is the best dressed. That’s because when you do NO WORK, you’re ass doesn’t get touched, hence being so damn “best dressed” nothing gets ruffled. Lol…these people are a joke.

Damn, this “Paternity Court” is something else.  Sometimes ghetto folks make no damn sense. They can be so simple, yet complicate s**t when you try and help out.  I’m watching this episode and its crazy how trifling some women can get. She’s got two dudes in court, accusing both of them of being the dad, but come to find out neither are the dad. So now It’s, like, who was she f**king then? Man that is one polluted hoe. I wouldn’t trust her ass at all. For anything. I have had one pregnancy scare (OK, two) and to this day nothing’s come of it, but of course that was over 12 yrs. ago, so who knows. Both of them were from out of state so they could have my child and I don’t know s**t about it. I lost contact with both so who knows, they don’t know my last name so I wouldn’t be found. Well, the one who probably lied to me about taking the day after pill doesn’t know. She knows nothing about me, so she couldn’t find me even if she wanted to. She doesn’t even know my real name. I gave her my nickname so it’s not like she’d find me. If I have a 12 yr. old, I’d like to know about them and how they are doing, I don’t know if I can take care of them, but I won’t deny them being their dad and I will do my best to do what I can, but the bitch better not try to extort my ass.  She’s loose cannon anyways, so I’d get custody of my child regardless because I have a better job than her. She’s never gotten an education and when she said she was going to.  She was just blowing smoke up my ass.  What a silly bitch. Why say you’re going to do something to keep me around when you know damn well you weren’t going to do s**t.  See dumb people think they’re slick, but they’re really not. Just because they got by on someone who went to college just to say they went to college but never did master critical thinking or how to use it. That doesn’t mean you can pull that s**t on me. Pussy can only take you so far. .

Witnessed something that happens way too often in places like this where the majority of the workers (non-administrative) are minority.  One of the maintenance ladies(latina) was complaining because a substitute worker(black or Jamaican) didn’t do the work she was supposed to do while she was gone for a couple of days. So today, when the latina worker comes in to do her job, she’s told that there are things that need to be finished, but they didn’t do is check that other bitch and tell her that she needed to finish up the s**t they’d left undone. And what pisses me off is that she wasn’t told s**t because the supervisor was the substitutes f**king family member. . Favoritism at its worst.  This s**t happens all of the time, especially in the service sector.

This only proves to me that Latinos ARE proven to be hard workers.  I’ve always seen Latin maintenance workers work harder than any other race and it’s because they take pride in the shti that they do, no matter what it is. They take on a task and finish it if anything. I was never the maintenance type, but my work ethic is still stronger than most people and it shows in my performance at work. I always get along with most of my co-workers, though I need to do a little better to get along with others. I need to lighten up too and realize my job isn’t that demanding and I shouldn’t expect a lot from my co-workers as well. They all work at their own pace and that’s how it should be at a job that doesn’t demand productivity in order to make a profit-profits come from our services to students, and we perform this very well.  Sometimes I think my girl is just what I need in my life, because she’s so happy-go-lucky, and doesn’t let a lot of things bother her. I think anyways. Anyways, she is kind of adorable when she gets frustrated, which kind of turns me on. She must like something about me so I’m OK with it.

So finally John Rowland quits his radio show. F**king a**hole was talking all types of s**t about the current governor and how s**t should run in local government, but he was responsible for corruption. And he kept at it all the while pretending to be such an upstanding citizen, lmao!!! I’ll bet you his fans are such c**k suckers that they will come up with excuses to why he should be forgiven, lmao!!! He would get on the radio day in and day out talking so much about how s**t should run in CT politics. Spewing his bulls**t got him a lot of fans because he was running an ideal government, but people forgot that he wasn’t running government how he spoke about during his long run as governor. He’s a disgrace and I’ll bet you they will forgive his ass.  he should me and example of, nevemind forgiving him. And WTIC, the despicable radio station that took him in, a corrupted governor to begin with, after he came out of prison. They should be ashamed of themselves. That dick head sal Haney should be eating tons of crow now. I won’t be listening to that station too often. The conservatives talk like the liberals act like a bunch of criminals, with their sheep group of an audience following them, all the while ignoring their own party, who actually get caught. And I’m glad they have been blasting this shit throughout the whole week.   I’ll bet you his c**k-sucking supporters are saying s**t like” why are they still talking about him in the media.” What a bunch of sheep. They followed his every f**king word. This a**hole would come up with frivolous facts about the CT government, claiming it’s true and people would believe his ass. it was hilarious how people would hang onto his every word. What a bunch of sheep those listeners are. I no longer can listen to that radio station because they are pretty much hypocrites and should be ignored for ignoring the people and their distaste for this governor who pulled the wool over people’s eyes yet again. Sleazy politicians always say shit like “I need to focus on family” or they’re quitting public life for “personal reasons” when they need to stop

So here I am, Friday, the 4^th of April, when I’m supposed to go back home to finish up my physical therapy, and they’re taking forever to get me out of here. I can’t wait to work on my computer whose screen is cracked. I have to look up an HP mini and see If I can buy one so I can replace it with my job’s computer since it fell off the damn table yesterday.  It fell and fucked up the USB jack on the side where the flash drive was.sure my flash drive is OK, but I can’at say